Jonasan

2009-10-21T17:55:00.003+08:00

just now when i was on my way home..
many things was running in my mind..

and one of it is still Love..

the Power of Love..is a very Powerful thing you can ever wanted to have..
if im not wrong..i've once heard a mother was unable to walk for nearly 10yrs..
but until this very day..a unit from her living block caught fire..
she was brought to safety by the ppl who is running for live..
but she never thought her son came home early and was still inside slping..

as when she heard her only son crying for help..
and no one was daring enough to save that poor little boy..
and the firemen was still on their way..
as her mother cant wait and see..the Power of Love give her the power..
to once again walk, run and jump..
although when she save her only son..just before they both was able to run out unharm..
a brick from the building drop on her mother's leg..
although she was only able to move her legs for few minutes..
but it was more then enough..

that is what its call The Power Of Love..in a good side..
but what abt ppl who gets hurt from someone they really love..
it will be Inimaginable..but the story will be on next post ^^

2009-10-18T18:09:00.002+08:00

Woop~ im back..

everytime when im on my way home from work..

i will listen Class 95Fm is a Singapore Radio Station ^^

Night time 9pm onwards is abt Love..

ppl sms or e-mail their Love Life no matter Good or Bad..

and i've thought of 1 Love Story..

here is goes~

I'm a normal person like every other normal ppl living in this world..

until this very day..i dream of someone so special i think we know each other since the day i was born..but i cant see or hear her..but this very night..

i took this bus..there was this girl..i felt she was the one i've been dreaming abt..

so i decided to sit near her..and ask whether i saw her somewhere..

and on the way home in the bus we chat..

before i alight i wanted keep in contact with her..so i've ask for her number..

but she didnt give..she said she has no handphone..

but she took down mine number instead..

after a few days..i didnt saw her and there is no way i can contact her..

and before i feel like giving up..a sms came ringing on my phone..

she asked me out for a date..

although our first date was kinda weird..we went to places where has nearly no ppl at all..

and as time goes by..i wanted show my frenz to her..

but this very thing is weird..even if she was beside me..no one else is able to see her..

starting i thought my frenz was playing..but the very next second she was gone..

gone in my life..so i try checking her online..and i realise she was not in this world since 20yrs ago..which is the day i was born..starting it freak me out..but now i miss her so..

love speaks no age, background and your level..but ghost and human..

i think it doesnt matters too~ so now im on my way to find her where she is..

thank you for reading my Love Story on air..and now im finding my love..

okie~ thats all for my Love Story..

its kinda long..but dont you find it touching ^^

okie im going play my game..thats all for now i think ^^

2009-10-15T00:24:00.002+08:00

I seriously dont know what to post anymore..

i just cant find back what i've lost for the past few yrs..

and myself..haiz~

anyway..i just rmb..im 1 step closer to my dream~

hope im not too lazy to done everything by the date..

so i'll have a unforgetable..haha XD not gonna say it out =P

so thats it..still sick..feel so weak..

hope i can live till that very day..

I WANT THE POWER OF MIND READING..

playing guess game is so hard~

2009-10-11T18:46:00.002+08:00

damn~ im having slight fever now lar..

hate to fall sick..why cant just let me fall in love..haiz~

weaker each day..

wondering am i going die or what~

trying real hard to find someone that love me..

and i've forgot how was i like..

what my true self is..

maybe things should change now..

finding myself then finding someone to love me..

haha XD how was i really like..? i wonder..

2009-10-07T17:15:00.003+08:00

Satuarday i went out and bought some new things..

2 tops 2 bottoms and a pair of shoes ^^

5items spend me around $80 cool ugh~

so long since i last shopping ^^

hmmm~ 2yrs or 3yrs back i think..oops =x

dont like shopping..hate the looks from their eyes~

like im some freak~

anyway monday i finish work rush home and went to meet my bros~

for a little drink..cos i ask them to accompany me on sat but no one show up~

sometimes im thinking what my father have said~

i call my this few close frenz brother..

my father said..if their really treat you their brother..

ask them give me money or lend me a few thousand~

although is a bit over..but i ask them accompany me to buy clothes~

no one show up~

sometimes i wonder..when they want someone to accompany im always first 1 to reach..

am i been treat the same way i treat them..haiz~

thats life all i can think to cover..

is either you eat or get eaten up~

where was i..? hmmm..

then tuesday i was off..damn sad~ 2nd day of the week..

went for swimming..at Chinese Garden..

since i secondary 1 or 2 i last went there..

no ppl..damn quiet..and F-ing alot gangster..

want to rest my mind also cant..

it was fun there..but it can be better if more ppl or frenz ba..

thats it for now i guess~

2009-10-04T03:11:00.003+08:00

today was a super duper long day for me..

ytd slpt at 8pm till 1am..

and i stay awake till i go work~

and today i worked nearly 17hours ba i think..

and i was awake for nearly 24hours~

now im starting to feel im over impulse..

a little too much~

feel like end this blog..

cant find any reasons to carry on..

get so sick and tired of everything that is going over and over again~

really~ always began from the same point..

game is still the best ba~ cos i will have it whenever i need it..

haha XD so lame~

now so slpy but just dont want end my night like this..

so LETS PAWN SOME ASS~

2009-09-28T22:14:00.002+08:00

Didnt blog for awhile..
busy Mapling ^^
but didnt reach Lvl 90 before 2x EXP ends =(

anyway last Saturday when i was working..
Mommy and Sammi and Joan came over to my working place and look for me ^^
im so happy ugh..although not much ppl visit me when i work..

but i think is enough..lets see how many ppl came look for me while im working..
Shi Fu~
Andy~
Yong Liang~
Mommy~
Sammi~
Joan~

if im not wrong thats abt it..
anyway~ after i finish work..i went out with mommy and sammi~
after a super duper long time..
cos we all are working different jobs and our off day is different too~

we went to Party World KTV..
this is the place where we will go most of the MONTH END..
but not anymore ler..but its okie..
cos we went there once again ^^
took some pics..and i still sing like..nvm..lets not talk abt it..

guess who is that~ haha XD

Sammi and Mommy~

me and mommy taking pics..

Sammi and Mommy..starting sammi was asking why suddenly we want take pics..
but i didnt tell her why..cos my blog..but they thought i wanted post at my Facebook..
anyway its the same ^^

and you know what i've found..check this out..
do you know what is this..and guess where i found it..
its at Party World KTV for foot massage..cool right~

and the most funny part is 3 of us was almost falling aslp at 4am..
cos we all nv have fun until 6am ler..
how i miss the times when we all still working tgt..

and when i thought happy moments was getting on my hands..
haiz~ dont say ler..bcos of that stupid spamming..
i almost lost my job..couldnt understand..
who is the brainless one now~
lucky i didnt lose my job..if not so smart eat air ugh..

2009-09-19T00:46:00.002+08:00

yAwN~

happy time always so fast end..

have to wait for my COMING OFF days..

past days is so boring..

only that 1 special day..i got the chance to go out..

went with my working frenz ^^

to catch Lasksa Steamboat..i think thats how they call it..

saw that MLM guy again..outside when we are moving off to have our dinner..

he thought i didnt see him..

is just i dont want let him know i saw..

he say until he earn so much then why were he wants me to earn too..

anyway went out with Andy to catch a Movie its call Gamer..

best show..seriously..but its M18 so too bad for under age ppl ^^

and the rest of my time is on MapleSea ^^

waiting for 21st till 23rd have to CHIONG all the way..

and 24th is Andy's Birthday..

finally i have events in my list ^^

2009-09-14T00:10:00.002+08:00

just came back from a very good and nice movie ^^

after such a long time..finally i've catch it..haha XD

watched Gamer..nice..but too bad its M18

so those under age too bad ^^

although is with a guy..but its better then no one right ^^

today have a walk in town..there is so much things i want to buy lar..

and someone to be with me lar..but all takes time..

and time can make everything move..

or maybe using the time to make things better in life..

even if dont..time still move..

so let us pray for the Good and await for the Worst ^^

2009-09-13T04:18:00.002+08:00

Time Check - 4.18am

a time that i should be fast a slp..

but im in front of my comp ^^

working in 4hours time..

i thought today she wont sms me..

but i was wrong =S

so does that sound that maybe i have chance..?

nope..not at all..cos while she was sms me..

she was with her dear..

i rmb i use to do that but not anymore i guess..

i was outside alone with the wind blowing strong..

and her falling aslp while i was outside waiting for her to wake up..

waited for nearly 6hours..and every minute i tell myself if i leave now..

what if she wakes up and im not there..

and there is my 6hours of waiting..

she dont rmb cos i once told her this..

but its okie..its always in my mind ^^

maybe im just too old for her ugh..

but age doesnt matter i guess..

cos that ass is only 1yr younger then me..

what to do..just have to thank God she was in my life for sometime..

6hours i've waited..and now is almost a yr since we walk our own ways..

still waiting..still no change..im still telling myself..what if she regret and wants to come back..

i cant just leave..anyway life is never fair..

so off i go..to a place where i can live..

Ciaoz~ to me slp..maybe 1 day..just 1 day..

she will regret for life..even thought is 10yrs or 100yrs later..

as long she know..i was the right 1 for her..

but no time will wait..

even if i give my life waiting..is pointless..

cos no time or chance will wait..

2009-09-12T21:44:00.002+08:00

hey yO~

after an hour's waiting inside the bus to even move out of Bugis..

is damn tiring..i finish my work at 8pm but reach home at 9.35pm..

but i left work place at 8.30pm ^^

so long nv go drink..today wake up i almost faint..

is like i can no longer drink..

reach work i cant even work well..

partly not feeling well..and was waiting for her to sms me..

although i know is a wont..

cos there is no reason she will want to lay in my arms once again..

cos if she does at the first place she wouldnt have left..

everytime i want totally forget abt her..

there is always 1 thing hold me back..what if she regret and come back..

but who knows when she will come back or even worst wont even come back..

no one knows..even if God Knows..he wont say..

but if i dont forget her it makes me live my days in pain..

although love her i must let her have her happiness..

but LOVE is a selfish thing..

all i can rmb is the happy times until this ass snatch her away from me..

but all she can rmb is the happy times with that ass and the bad times with me..

haiz..i wonder..wonder when will she regret for leaving me..

I WANT MOVE ON..

but there is different kind of thing holding me back..

ARH..!i!

2009-09-12T04:33:00.002+08:00

its been weeks since i last post..

busy Mapling..dont want think so much but just worry abt Maple..

but ytd something happen once again..

my Ex msn and sms me..

and you know what..the same old thing happen..

not we fight..but i went to drink..

last time i use to go drink at M bar..whenever she contact me..

cos i only left with making me drunk to not think of her..

although in my heart she is always 14..

but she stands almost all my heart..

things i promise her i didnt keep..

but my love for her is always there..

i dont know why..but whenever she contact me im always at M Bar..

and always will have someone to ask me go..

so when i was there..we will smsing..

i given her my blog link..

cos to me..i know she wont come back to me..

no point if i edit it cos is so fake..

but she said my blog is all abt Toilet Paper..

yea~ anyway since now..

i've receive quite alot of hurt..

and its my turn to do so too..

but im sorry..

i just trying to find someone else to forget 14..

since the day she left..its almost a year..

and everything was kept in my heart..

i cant let it out or to cry out..

until pass few days..

i just dont know what is on her mind..

she said my blog is all the things that is on my mind..

but i've also said i think..

this blog is suppose to be a place where i voice out my feelings..

but due to ppl is visiting..i cant really say it out..

so there is still things kept and this blog is not fully real..

all i asked is her to trust me..

even if i lie..it was for me and 14 to be together or stay forever..

just now at M Bar..i really want cry..but i cant..

i want make myself drunk but i just wont..

last time she always said..

she understand me more then i understand her..

but you know what..i think im more then she ever understand..

what i am or what i've become is at my facebook..

the quiz that i've done..since last time..and that is cant fake..

to ppl i may look flirt..but deep down in my heart that is only 1..

she said i neglect her so she left..

even if she comes back to me NOW..

im working..i think she will leave me once again..

in this world which guy dont look at girls..

im a normal man of cos i look and think..

but when time to go home..my eyes is only to my wife..

this post i bet is the longest i've posted..

im not very clear now..partly of my body is numb..

but im not drunk..i've try all i've got to sms her..

but heaven knows if she will come back..

is all abt believe and trust ba..

if other ppl's words or things is worth her trust then mine..

then there is nth and i mean NTH i can say or do to touch her..

Laopo i can rmb all the things that we once been through..

and i Love you nth less since the day we are together..

2009-08-30T01:19:00.003+08:00

Sometimes i wonder..

izzit this world is getting out of hand or is just me..

each day i grow older..

and each day i find that things in life is getting worst..

dont really know how to explain..cos i dont even know what is really going on..

but in life since i was young..

didnt have what i or other kids should have..

i was brought up in a broken family..

although i have no mother's love..

but when i was 14 i've found someone that willing to be my mommy ^^

she taught me quite alot..but it wasnt enough..

everyone has it place and time..

even thought i have my grandma's love since the day i dont have mother's..

but grandma is still grandma..

God-mommy is still God-mommy..

although i have my father..but seriously we dont understand each other at all..

or maybe is just me who is not being understanding enough..

sometimes i blame him for not giving me a normal family..

but who knows what is really happening in his life..

everyone is this world is just like in the TV..

everyone is the main role in their life..

izzit im really that stupid or i just keep blaming and not dare to face what is actually coming..

sometimes i think alot..and sometimes i dont even want to think..

cos thinking seriously is a very tiring job..

he say knowlegde is important..cos im too stupid..

but i think money is everything..

if things i need to know but first i need to have the money to even try it..

or feelings that i never felt before i also need money to even live..

anyway i just dont know how a person should live in life..

not that i dont want learn or so..

but without money i can do nth in life..

to do so..i work..and spending so much time in work..

i have no time for others..or even if i want do other things..

money is once again in my mind..

i've seen different kind of ppl..

ppl who is born in a sliver spoon..father damn rich..

and his son is like : haiz..im so bored..my father has it own company..making big money..

and his only son rather work part time job and SLACK..

is he trying to show off or izzit he is having other problem but money..

maybe..maybe been rich you wont get parent's love..

but what abt being poor..how do you define parent's love..

at times say you this and that..? or trying to really know how your kids is thinking and all..

or just giving money every now and then..

yes i do agree..money is not EVERYTHING..

but without money..how can you do others..

haiz..im just dont want to make my first move..

cos i dont know which way to go..and i dont want get hurt..

i've been wounded enough..but who knows..

*********

i finish work i came home and i dont want do or think..

so i went to slp..i though i will wake up the next day morning and go to work..

since i have no one to hang around and to talk to..

then i just hope i can work slp work and slp..

today's sales was not bad i think..

end work at 6pm..but knock off at 7pm..

didnt really have the chance to leave..

this girl in work i find she is cute ^^

but she has bf..haha XD

i dont know izzit i've no love..so any girl that is cute i like..

but anyway now im only thinking of MONEY..!i!

and money is all i can think of now..

2009-08-27T20:44:00.005+08:00

AR..!i! LIFE SUX..!i!

I WANT CRY NOW..!i!

i feel im such a failiure..i've got no frenz to accompany when im off..

or even to go out to just catch a movie..!i!

WHY..!i!

am i really that bad or sux to with fren with..

although im a bit stupid and have not much knowlegde..

so what..

i listens to radio and this station says..

even if you are the richest person in this world..without love you are still poor..

i think is rubbish..!i! MONEY CAN BUY ANYTHING..

with money i can have all kind of love..even if its fake is also love..

i've move from near my fren to away and all bcos i dont have a nice family which others have..

i dont do bad things..im not edu but i also not ah beng ugh..

im just a normal person like other normal ppl in this world..

but yet im not treat normally..

i lie to myself i lie to everyone that im lucky..

even times i dont even know what i say or do is it really me..

ppl say family is the closest ppl you can even have..

but i just not into family type..

i want frenz but frenz dont want me..

i want a gf but yet the harder i try the harder i cant get..

is all this fair..and life was never fair..

i use to think from the bad side..makes me emo and depress..

mommy always say think on the bright side..

so i always tell myself how many ppl dont even have clothes or food to eat..

im lucky im normal..i can walk and work..

just that i no mother..sometimes i think law is good to keep me safe..

but sometimes i really hope there is no laws..i want kill everyone..ppl that hurts me and make my life sux..

at this very moment..i finally can cry..

after so long..almost a year and i finally can cry..

i finally can let everything out..

i've got no one to talk to abt my life..the hate to this world..

everything was inside my heart..my mind..drives me crazy seriously..

i just want feel loved..am i too selfish..

being nice and good doesnt really gives me good reward back..

i was once or should i say i am a person that goes chruch..

ppl inside say you do your best and god will do the rest..

then can i ask..when is my turn god will see..

or are you trying to tell me i didnt try hard enough..

i really cant carry on any longer..

i really cant..

2009-08-24T02:05:00.006+08:00

today i went Junction 8 O.T again ^^

but i was kinda late cos when i leave Orchard Central to Junction 8..

then i saw Shereen's sms ask me to bring 1 roll of a dollar coin over..

haiz..make me run back lar..

so yup~ i've finish and reach home ^^

today only 2crew working neh..first time sia..

okie lar..not really first time..

when i JUST started working in Junction 8 closing..

someone didnt come and left me and cherrie neh..

but she pro lar..so still okie ^^

but anyway that is not the point i want say..

Just Now..!i! only got 4 female and me 1 handsome boy ^^

haha XD but there is 3 pretty lady i've work with before..

so of cos is not talking abt them right ^^ yup yup~

is this girl i want talk abt..you know at the very first sight..

i find she is cute and adorable..until she open her mouth..

not bcos she got bad breath or what lar..

jus her voice like a bit low le..

but you know what..when we was inside the transport..

she keep sms..i think she got bf ler T_T

so nvm..anyway she lives at CCK..near my mommy's hse..

haiz..i think i now just keep working and carry on my life ba..

stop thinking of girl ^^ no money how to have sg girls right..

so yup yup~ she is really kinda cute ^^

2009-08-22T00:54:00.002+08:00

today damn tired sia @-@

today morning i reach early so i went ta bao breakfast..

very long never eat Big Breakfast ler..although is very hard to bite..

but they left it there too long..but its still taste nice ^^

and the Coke was perfect im telling you..WoohooO~

but i bought the small size..haiz~

then we was so busy until 4pm then took my lunch ^^

although was busy but was fun ^^

then went to Junction 8 kisok work till now..

lucky i didnt stay there too long..almost miss my last train home ^^

tml im working morning 10am to 6pm ^^

and im broke..zero dollar in my bank and pocket..damn sad..

haiz..i keep seeing cpl all around..

make me so jealous and hurt deeply..

but its okie i think..the most cry only ma..anyway i also didnt pay my tears bill..

so no one can see if im really crying..haha XD so lame~

anyway the pic below is Big Breakfast ^^

2009-08-19T00:31:00.002+08:00

Wooohoooo~

tml is my off day and i've got no money and no one to go out..

that so sad..so i shall say abt today then ^^

just now before i was abt to start doing my closing of today ^^

i went out SMOKE..!i! thats me ^^

then a stranger jus pop out like there is some magic o.O?

okie that's a bit too over..

anyway this guy tell me and ask me damn a loads of stuffs..

he never say what his job is all abt..

but anyway i bet is some stupid MLM again..

if im not wrong is call the Muilt Level Marketing..

its just use to cheat those ppl who always dreams alot..

dont know why this week alot this kind of thing is finding me..

my camp frenz..a stranger..damn..im already very lost..dont make me worst can..

for god-sake..but anyway..just now inside bus 7 on the way home..

a guy a this bus-stop wave at bus 7..but the driver didnt stop..cos its suppose to stop at another stop..so i think that guy know he try to run to the next bus-stop which is only across a street..

guess what..the driver slow down and then speed up _l_ F right..

make that poor guy run for nth..but i keep laughing XD

so thats it for today ^^

feeling lonely and lost..

wonder what i really wants..but right now i need someone special to hug on..

so Ciaoz~

2009-08-18T00:56:00.004+08:00

today O.T at Junction 8 ^^

but no familiar faces =( but today was okie cos is already over ^^

again i forgot to bring back my apron..

and my next working day will be on friday..

and once again my thumb bleeds..

but this time different station and different hand.. T_T

Haiz..i think i cant go there work anymore..keep getting hurt.. or maybe too miss the old days so keep leaving my blood there to make it feels home..haha XD

okie that is a bit sick..

maybe i lost of blood..a little too much..haha XD

and im home now after bath ^^

tml suppose to be my off day..but now is wednesday..

and tml doing closing..sad..haiz..dont say ler..

hope i can wake up damn early to drop by Junction 8 to take my apron ^^ anyway

i took a lot of pics..

some is made by mine ^^

and some is by our Part Time Manager David..

so please do enjoy ^^

By - David 6Hearts ^^

By - Mine Mini Pizza Delight ^^

By - David ( dont know what it call )

By - Mine Banana Hazelnut with Cherries ^^

By - Mine Banana Hazelnut ^^

By - Mine A Breakfast that cost your life but cant even fill your stomach ^^

2009-08-14T00:32:00.003+08:00

Oh man..im so gonna post this thing..

we finish our closing at around 11.48pm..

i actually wanted to cross the street to wait for my bus..

but is like everytime i have to walk that long dark alley..

so i decided to take train..and when i walk near to the train station..

its says 1min to train come..and its last..

so i ran all the way..when i reach there..

i SAW it with my OWN eyes the train door closes..

and the next second the station says The Last Train Going Towards City and Marina Bay has left..haiz..lucky i still got my last bus..i also dont know why i want to run..haiz..

hmmm~ i think thats all..actually i got 1 more thing in mind..but i kinda forgot it..

so maybe other time i rmb then i post..haha XD

reach home safe and sound ^^

2009-08-11T01:05:00.002+08:00

tml is my off day lor..

can go cut my hair and become handsome once again ^^

although im also handsome with long hair..Eeee..haha XD

but i think im more handsome with short hairs..

tml going rot at home the whole day..

anyway i also no money to go out after i bought my this NEW CPU..

haha XD now so tired..want slp ler..pass few days didnt have enough slp..

2009-08-10T00:48:00.003+08:00

This coming whole week im working closing all the way T_T
although i should be very happy..cause dont need wake up so early..
but i want go out le..night cannot go out..T_T
and everyone there is part timer..as in most of the ppl there..

i always closing kitchen very sianz~
cos i feel like clearing ppl's shit..
i also dont know want to complaint anot..
but whenever i say this or that never do or done..
she will say i also never do this or that..

but even so..i believe i've done 9 out of 10..
and she just did 6 out of 10..
mine is i forgot..her's is bcos she is not the closer..

haiz..anyway today b4 i start work..went to Raffles Hospital's Coffee Bean take thing..
and Iluma too..omg~ the weather is damn hot..and lots of ppl walking around lar..
just like chinese new year in chinatown..
even the station also cannot move..ppl keep push around..

today is National Day..not much ppl after 8pm..
cos all sure go see Fireworks ma..
i still rmb my last time watch that..but is all past..
think ler will only make myself feel sad and hurt =(

no pics for today ^^
but after i cut my hair im gonna take ^^
so you guys/girls wont forget how handsome i am ^^ haha XD

2009-08-09T01:10:00.002+08:00

haha XD so many days never post ler..

a little bit lazy and also nothing to post about..

is all about work..dont want keep complaint and complaint..

anyway my life now is like last time..work, game, sleep ^^

nothing else..hope i can save up and get myself a motorbike ^^

cause im going to be more and more handsome ^^

thats for this week ^^

2009-08-05T18:58:00.003+08:00

Wooo~ tml is my off day lor..
today was so busy FOR ME..alone doing all the food really can die..
aunty so pro..although today Shereen ask 1 more person come early..
in case i cant take it..but end up no much different..
cos im still doing it all alone..

but i swear i clean as i go..until i get so angry that outside was so free..
and i still have to do everything myself..
then i realize the time..it was already 3.30pm..
but only throwing rubbish time..its only 15mins i think..
cos of the stupid lift so long then come..
my place was in a big messy..just because is not their station..

everyone there is so..i dont know how to spell..
just all so care for themselves..and lazy..
if i want list down the things i do for them..they can all give me half of their pay..
im so tired of working now..seriously..never felt this way..

izzit because last time is at KFC..
but what is the diff right..is still under F&B..
damn angry..seriously..if such a nice person can even angry..
is seriously getting worst..haiz..anyway tml i off..so just give it..

so hungry..until 6pm..didnt get the chance to cut hair..
maybe next time ba ^^ now eating food ler..haha XD

2009-08-03T03:58:00.004+08:00

today actually is 6pm end de..but went O.T
so now then finish everything and blog once again ^^

below have a few pics..my hp cant keep too many pics..
so only took what i think is worth keeping..
and today at work i burn myself again..but only 2fingers..
sobsob T_T so pain lar..now still pain..

this is my new CPU ^^

and this is me when my shoulder is hurt..

and this is Teddy..but he is no longer with us..T_T
i mean he post to other outlet lar..not *cough..
but i find that he and me can click well..maybe we both are same type..
as in character..now gay please..

and this cake is i walk under the bright hot sun and buy for AUNTY xiao qing's 21st birthday i think..and after she happy happy share with others..i have to clean up..
so sad right..help her end up bring myself more things to do..

The Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf got hired ppl and post on newspaper..
so i took it down..although cant really see..haha XD

and jus guess what drink is this..is myself make de..
Banana Hazelnut Ice Blended ^^

i jus find this nice so took it down..hehe ^^

and this is i find it weird so took it down..
i wanted do a Breakfast meal..then the egg has blood in it..
Eeee..so i took it down and throw it away..

2009-08-03T00:54:00.001+08:00

im back..once again..
i bought my new CPU ler..haha XD
got alot feelings to say or to tell someone..but i didnt have the chance..
anyway i now also forgot ler..
so anyway tml i working morning..so after tml then i post the pics i took for the pass few days..
without my comp ^^ miss me right..haha XD

Ciaoz~

2009-07-18T19:37:00.003+08:00

reach home after work..today is Saturday le..but im at home..
so sad lar..anyway i also cant go out..my body wont allow me to carry on..
my burn is like getting worst..

today at work so pain..now still pain..
im jus like handicap..haiz..damn sad ugh..i belongs to no one's life..
not even a sms asking me out..

so i played facebook once again..but i've finish up all my turns and rounds in facebook..
not i've got nth to do..so i blog..after i blog then i also will have nth to do..
OMG~ im so friendly and nice..why so lonely have to stay at home on a Saturday..

ppl that are so bad and use their " frenz " got to hang out with frenz NOW..
life is really so unfair..ppl that is toying others feeling..they take those ppl like gold..
then ppl that want take things serious others take this ppl as shit..
F this world man..money is everything..
i got money i got everything..even if its fake..is still there..

when you are damn rich..you can even throw money at their face and F them all over..
they will still smile and say sorry..treat others nice and they will treat you nice back..
take all this throw inside the bin..all are bullshit..

good ppl have no good endings..
only bad ppl has..
I WANT CHANGE..!i! change to a person that only cares abt himself..
cos selfish is the key to success..

2009-07-18T03:24:00.003+08:00

omg~ i cant imagine i've finally reach home..
today to me is seriously a very long day..
ytd went out with Andy for drinking..till around 1am..
woke up at 6am..and 2days ago i jus recover from my whatever illness..
and today 20hours of working..cool right..haha XD

this was took before i leave hse to work..
haha XD handsome right..Lol..

then during work..haiz..i think i belong to the Cannot Make It department you know..
Shereen and Chervo is damn good lar..
but nvm..i believe is the time i need..

and i ate Fuzilli Chicken Mushroom during morning and my night..haha XD
okie after Orchard Central head straight to Forum..
once again i work with that guy again..hate him lar..so irritating..

so from the START i tell them all..dont touch me when i doing order..
i say i can HANDLE..so they let me be..only the starting part..
after awhile 2 cashiers against me..i still can handle..
only my movement looks slow..BUT i didnt owe any drinks okie..
until this ass came say help me and teach me how to clear order fast..
i was like _l_ F off lar..you will only make things worst..

and really he make things worst..he skip orders and customers complain why i came first..
get last..so lame right..then he say sorry ugh..is the manager ask me come help you..
WTF..!i! starting he say i do this way sure very slow..after he come nv slow..jus complains and complains..
and i realise i dont belong to the Cannot Make It department..he does..haha XD
so bad of me..so as usual..when someone wants to prove he is better when they are not..
i go clear table ^^ best job to do..after i came back..he kena scold by all the ppl there..
ask him to go away and stop there dont move..i was like o.O are you attachment or me..?
but anyway i think he is jus trying show care ba..

omg~ i got damn alot say abt there..but i think i shall stop here..
keep the rest to myself..anyway im going be like last time..keep everything to myself and me..
until someone really like me in everyway..
okie i go facebook awhile then must slp ler..later 10am yawn~

2009-07-15T15:39:00.004+08:00

today i only worked for 2hours..

cos im sick..i really cannot take it..my body is shaking..
having cold sweat..keep want to vomit..and feeling dizzy..
why am i being so weak nowadays..?

Lucky Wellin came down at 9plus dont know for what..cos she is 3.30pm de..
but still need to thanks her..
I'm sorry Fernando..is not bcos i dont want work with you although you didnt even talk to me..
but i today really cannot make it..im sorry guys for letting you all down..

but i really swear i wont fall sick again..
hate being sick..so weak in everywhere..
went see doctor below my hse..so many medicine for me..and its all pills..
i dont know how to sallow..and i have to crush them all and mix with water..

now still having this damn pain headache..jus like after a car accident..
lucky not the stupid H1N1..if not i'll cry..im too young to die..

************

ytd went out help me father check phone..
and my sister nth better to do so we tgt went out for the very first time..
and half way to Parrgo ( dont know izzit like this spell ) she saw her classmate..
so he tag along..then went to Orchard Central for our breakfast at 5pm..haha XD

then wait till 7pm for her bf..and we went to Parklene for Lan Shop..
4ppl ma..jus nice 2 on 2..but her bf dont play much games..
and her classmate also not that pro ugh..
so that night only i enjoying myself..haha XD

and i bought a hp pounch..

2009-07-14T00:37:00.006+08:00

Wooo~ today i finally upload all the pics i've took for the past dont know how many days..
and guess what im going say..? o.O?
today i burn myself for the very first time in my working life..
5yrs in KFC i was never hurt or cut..
but 2months in The Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf..my whole is full of cuts and today burn by HOT WATER..!i!
anyway i took some pic of that burn mark..

but before that if ppl out there think that the pic will make you vomit..
please Alt F4 and close it ba..
but before today's news..lets see what past day's pics i've took..

this is Pure Vanilla Ice Blended with Whip Cream and Cherry ^^
although i make wrong..but it taste really nice ^^ cos i make de ma..haha XD

this is Forum The Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf..
went there work O.T actually got alot to talk abt there..
but i forget mostly everything..but anyway ppl there is weird..

they need a all rounder..but they put me at Ice Blended o.O?
anyway and i've finish my closing station..i try help this person..
but end up this person talk to me and ask me to do what and what..
sounds like he is the one helping me..i was like WTF..!i!
but anyway lucky i only have 1day at Forum ^^

cant wait to go Junction 8 again..guys i miss you all..!i!
can you all hear me ^^ haha XD so lame..

hehe ^^ i got burn and cannot wear the apron so i was allow to wear it half way..
although i ask Lance ( Allan ) to take my whole body..

okie if you think you will vomit to disgusting pic please Alt F4..
i've give the warning..

jus took right after i got burn by the HOT WATER..!i!

this is after my long day of work and reach home after bath took de ^^
hmmm~ only few hours my skin has dead..is now dead skin ler..
when i got burn..the first thing was not cry or shout for help..
but i was thinking to tell someone that cares me and show me care..
but i dont have anyone in my mind at that point of time..

haiz..so sad right..haha XD anyway i've grow up..
mommy always say i a bit thing cry until like its end of the world..
this time i didnt even make a sound..although it hurts..
but i think i've no feeling already..

today my Shifu came find me..while dating ba..
make him a special Ice Blended by me ^^
hmmm~ is customer request ugh..so yup yup..

okie..i go play FaceBook lor..
now i really understand i have totally no feel anymore..
even if i bleed i feel nth ^^

2009-07-13T02:33:00.002+08:00

bOo~ its another new week..
so tired..im back to my old life..no life ^^
only work and games thats all..dont know is good or bad..

anyway i Friday went Forum work O.T for 9hours..
although at there work is seriously a bit weird..but think of the money..
its great ^^ almost faint when closing..maybe not enough slp..
and Saturday at my place work..i also almost faint..haha XD
but who cares right..jus work for money ba..

so lazy to post my pic..i took a few pic ler..
anyway i play facebook lor ^^
who cares..this coming week i going to have 3days O.T ^^
although 2days is at Forum BUT 1day is at Junction 8 yea ^^
hao ler..i go play game ler..

2009-07-10T06:39:00.001+08:00

Wake up Wake up..!i! its morning ler..i going to work ler..
ytd went out DRINK again..!i! yes~ DRINK..
with my brothers ^^ till around 2am..
was plan to go home at around 1am end up stay until 2am..

and now have to wake up and go work..
so tired..haiz..keeping everything inside heart is seriously xin ku..
Lol..hao ler..will stop here ^^
who cares anyone~

2009-07-09T17:57:00.003+08:00

Wooo~ reach home..home alone..
damn sick ytd's ytd..but today is better ba i think..
i seriously have to STOP thinking..
what is the point when i put someone/something first but they dont even care..
all they use is just words..

bull shit..anyone can also say that..
saying is loads easier then doing it..
who cant you tell me..not those handicap lar..

anyway thats it..damn regret why i want know and be frenz..
end up only i feel hurt..heartless is the best..
where you got no feelings for anyone and you can HURT everyone..
too bad i born with a red heart..not black..

so im gonna smoke so much until my heart turns black..
pass 3days..no one came down see how am i..
although i was only waiting for that 1 person..
i've smoked more then 2packs for that 3days..
more then what normally i smoked..so ya~

im gonna stop that..cos i wont let my feelings change cos of someone..
who cares right..everyone is selfish..
i want stay happy..you sad not my business..is that in your mind too~
i've lived for almost 21yrs now then i know this sentence..
how slow am i..but late better then never..

you gonna stay whatever i dont care..
i want be what i am and kill everyone that's against me ^^
NOOB FUCK OFF..!i!

2009-07-08T18:46:00.003+08:00

11am woke up today..
off and rot at home..doing nothing but jus rot..so sad..
now is abt 7pm..i've been playing FaceBook for almost 8hrs..
and all i've done is quiz..haha XD

anyway if whoever got FaceBook add me o~
yup yup my name is still my name ^^
be with me if i really stands a place in your life ^^
i think im born to be everyone's BEST FRENz or CLOSE FRENz..

born alone and shall die alone..
God is so fair..haha XD

2009-07-08T13:10:00.003+08:00

woke up after ytd terrible headache..
although i now feel slightly better..but still pain..
haiz..today is my off day but im rotting at home..

no frenz no loves one..so sad..
im so sick yet no one cares..

if im not working..seriously i think if i die at home..no one will even know..
im gone from this world..hope my illness is not the H1N1 thingy..
haiz..F the world man..!i!

2009-07-08T00:26:00.003+08:00

reach home again..actually was feeling sad wanted go drink..
but before i leave hse i was having a strong headache..
but only 1 side..then after i reach the meeting place..
i start to feel like vomiting..omg~ damn xin ku lar..
then when going go take bus to the drinking place..
while waiting for the bus..i start to feel cold..and i start to have cold sweat..
and stomach pain..damn..dont know izzit i really sick or just feeling that hurt me so deep..
i feel all this..anyway i didnt go..and decided to come back home..

now goin slp ler..nv felt this way before..damn XIN KU UGH..!i!

2009-07-07T19:49:00.003+08:00

finish work and reach home lor ^^
today was suppose to be my off day but was change to Wednesday..
after my work i took train back..but i dont know why i stood there for very long..
is like im so lost..dont know where to go..

then reach home ler..got some kuku guy say he from Government and ask some questions..
haiz..i feel like crying but i just cant..not because i dont want cos im a man..
is i want but jus wont have tears down my eyes..

everyone is a main role in everyone's life..
so mine also right..but why aint i doing well like those main role in TV..
haiz..im not going QUIT smoking..everytime i quit for someone end up i smoke more..
and this time is worst..

seriously what is the point of being good ma..
this is real life..being good equal die first..
so hard working but end up still get ppl dislike..
treat ppl nice and good end up ppl treat me as best fren..WTF..!i!

ARH..!i! i so fan..!i! im so sad..!i! im so confuse..!i!
im in deep pain..!i! i want cut myself and see blood..!i!
maybe i will not feel so pain..haiz..

2009-07-06T19:26:00.006+08:00

finish work ler..now jus reach home haven bath and all..
so lazy and tired..
morning went to The Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf HQ take stock..
so many things but i alone..
the worst part is they pack it 2 big bags..

make me 1 person take 1 point to 1 point..
after wearing the Mascot so tired lar..
but i really had loads of fun doing it..
but this week not me ler..too bad~

anyway i wear also no one come find me..
so lonely lar..is just like have fun want share also no one to share..
haiz..this weekdays i working morning..
dont know which day i will be late for work..so scare..omg~
hmmm~ now so sad but i have no one to find to talk to..
although i have Mommy but she is just God-Mommy..

I GOT NO ONE TO TALK TO NOW..!i!

and this week i got alot O.T yea~
earn more money..anyway also no one to hangout with..
then dont waste the time rotting at home..
hope i everyday also O.T haha XD
since no one want let me die for..then i shall die for money ba..
go play game lor ^^

2009-07-06T01:17:00.006+08:00

my father using comp..until now then can use..
today also a tired day..wear the thingy for damn long..
cos we was unable to go in and rest i jus have to stay outside for nearly 4hrs..
tired but fun..but sales okie okie only..

so i think thats all for work..cos today also nth much to talk abt..
only when i wear the thingy ppl at the mall..
like the Brass Band ppl when playing..they say shoppers there can dance if they want..
then i stand there and look at them..and the singer say but not for our Ice Blended..
cos ytd he had dance alot for us..everyone laugh lar..

then also the Drum Band outside the mall..
i want go there disturb..they trap me..so bad right..
haha XD or im so evil..

and when i was waiting for the who..i dont know how to spell his name..
got a security tap on my back and ask me dance well..
haha XD hope i help everyone in the mall bring sales to them ^^

omg~ Daphne found a video of me dancing lar..
dont know how she do it..but only awhile and i didnt really dance alot..haha XD

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=96271519156&ref=share

copy and paste ba..is at FaceBook..lucky i got acct..haha XD damn funny lar..
go watch..

**********

haiz..yup yup..is my feelings time ^^
finally she didnt reply me ler..
why must everyone think or feel that i can be everyone's best fren..
is like i live for everyone..then when i need someone..
who will live for me..?
haiz..dont say ler..everyone is selfish..
do i really look ugly or my character is bad..?
why want be with someone i love also so hard..haiz..
i give up..the day i know love i die for girl..
from today onwards i want girl die for me..

2009-07-05T12:20:00.003+08:00

half an hour more i must be at my work place..
but im at home eating fried carrot cake..and blogging..
i've finally know all you want is just be frenz..
thank you for making me look like a fool..

hoping and thinking which day will be that day..
so much i've done end up is just for a fren..hmmm~ not my kind le..
i wont change anything for frenz..not even for my brothers that know for 10yrs..

is you simply dont understand..then just stop here since you dont even want to move on..
even if you stop the world is still turning..
got to go ler..if not late for work..

later 1pm to 7pm come find me ba if anyone is free..
Toilet Paper i dont even think you will come down..
and i dont want you come down..cos you will be with your " close frenz " stand so near like some bf..
in front of me.._l_ F off man..

2009-07-05T01:32:00.005+08:00

Wooo~ today was a busy and tiring day for everyone at Orchard Central's Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf ba..
today i was wearing the Ice Blended thingy..sorry ugh dont know how to spell..
i dont know am i a worker that wants to work for a living or because im sad so i become like a clown..
anyway today everyone work hard and we finally hit 3k sales for the first time..

Thank you everyone and Shereen for staying till closing for us and 3k sales ^^
and tml i will be there same place same time..rmb come find me and if you take pic please send to me..
so i can post in my blog~

*************

ytd damn sad..so after work i go find my brothers to drink..
even i know tml will be a hard day for me i still want go drink..
i want drunk and slp and forget everything..

but after this few days..i found that Toilet Paper didnt even CARE for me at all..
so i've here seriously give up..
and i will start posting ^^

no one be there for me then no one lor..
i will always be the Star in everyone's heart but you..
you think im unfair then im sorry..i cant hold on anymore..

anyway this are the pic i ytd night with my brothers~

the drink we open ^^
although i drank 4cups only..but my hand is shaking already..
now i believe..when you sad even 1 cup you can drunk..

left side and right side is my brothers..
red shirt is my brother's real life blood brother..

there..they 2 are real life blood brother..

he is playing 5 10 15 with the rest..
like want to fight ugh..? haha XD

she quite fat..but very cute ^^
she pose ler..then after i took she ask me cannot take without asking le..
cute right..haha XD

2009-07-04T01:03:00.006+08:00

today is my second day post but saved at draft..
jus reach home but going out now~
meet my brothers..Andy and Darius..

today afternoon went for the exam i pass ^^ although it was my second try..
it was damn hard..but they was saying : until you learn Coffee then you know hard..
but anyway the exam was 3pm to 4pm end up started at 4.16pm..
then when i reach Orchard Central was already 7.30pm..

today alot ppl..and Teddy kept asking me let Lance do..
order already jam still ask me let him do..
i dont want have problem with managers again..so i let them be..

before i went out wait for them i took some pic inside Orchard Central..
but i was stopped by the ppl there..lucky my phone memory not enough have to delete..
so i jus show the person..haha XD lucky me..

and today we busy till 11.30pm..earn around $900..
after work was 12.30pm..took cab back..
but we waited outside for Teddy to finish his food~
both of them was busy sms and calling..
although i dont know who..but i feel like why i dont have a person to do so with..

haiz..so sad right~
i dont like lock by job..but im so willing to lock up by my wife or gf..
to me is love..maybe i nv had a proper love since young..

anyway i just cant take this anymore..
to me or maybe to some ppl..you like then be tgt..dont like just let go lar..
i want be tgt but you jus say not sure..

and seriously i want to give up ler..
i say dont want talk then you really let me be..omg~
so i will not stay there and wait..i'll go..to a place where no one is..
maybe a place where no love lives..

***********

today is sat

2009-07-02T23:04:00.006+08:00

Woot~ today was a busy day~
work so hard but only $600 sales..but i think is not bad ler ba~
dont know night time can hit 1k sales ma..

anyway~ after work we was sitting there slacking..
until someone came~ we all decided to leave..
and we ( Shereen, Daphne, John and me ) wanted have dinner tgt..
and i rmb i saw steamboat somewhere in Orchard Central..
but we didnt found it..

so end up we decided to eat at Seoul Garden..

at Taka if i not wrong ^^
then we got 3 more frenz ^^
Shereen's ex staff..but dont know izzit all or only 1..?

and this is some pic i took~

John, Daphne

hmmm~ this 2 i forget their name of i think they didnt tell me their name~
cos Daphne was telling them this is John and Jon..

there is the 3 new frenz ^^
Azmi on the very left wearing red..cos his name is one of my secondary fren..
so can rmb =X

maybe you will think thought i say total is 7 of us..
ya~ Shereen was sitting my right side..
and i dont take pic of my own~ so ya~
didnt took her pic =X
sorry ^^ not bcos i dont like you what ugh~

so tired now..tml is the Exam for the Tea..
and im not well prepare..haiz..
now going slp soon~ tml then study ba~
wish me luck..and here i wish Shikin and Ida all the best ^^

2009-07-02T06:39:00.004+08:00

bOo~ now is 6plus in the morning~
another day working mornin~
early morning was been blame for all the fault..
so sad~ hate this feeling..

anyway awhile more will be off to work ler..
so tired and pain and sad~
and today will be a long day being home alone~

wont be online i think after so much has happen..
cos i find it pointless..
and since the free time i have is alone..
i'll be finding another job to make myself busy till the limit i cant even slp..
although is a bit too early to find another job~
but since i gonna find at the later part..no diff if i get it now~
since my free time i gonna be alone..

maybe this is better for whoever thinks i sux..
when things always have to happen this way..
want to step out but end up going back to the start point..

anyway my pay should be out ler..
going buy my cap or hat~
and be my old self again..where all i care is myself..
since ppl think im selfish~
yea~ game is my life and money is everything~
the rest is all bullshit~

sorry for the rest if my post feel hurting..
but i bet no one will know~
or maybe i wont know..cos this blog will not be visited by Jonasan me anymore~
where everything is kept to myself..

after so long and this is my last..

Till Next Time~

2009-07-01T17:45:00.004+08:00

after so long first day doing morning..
and guess what..i was late~
although is only 10mins but still late ma..

and since the time i woke up i keep running to the toilet like its really free..
although is really free..haha XD
today everyone hack care me..actually is not hack care ba..
just i now seriously F-ing no mood..

cos i cant feel at least someone place me first..
that is sad thing to talk abt i think..
now damn hungry damn tired damn angry..or maybe jus no mood rather then angry..

when i cant wait ppl say i so impatient..
when i try to control..end up system faulty and i was waiting like a fool~
is like if this person you know is always impatient..
one day he totally nv contact or rush you for few hours..
dont you find something wrong..?
nvm..im not that important to anyone after all..

a place where i want voice out..but i cant really type it out..
a person i thought was there for me..but is all with my own thinking..
off day no one to hang out with..
when you down no one to talk to..
when you happy no one to share the joy with..
am i still suppose to carry on to live..?
maybe the day i am gone no one will know~
haha XD so sad~ what a person..

the pain that is within my heart who can understand..?
i rather the cut was right on my flesh then there ba~

2009-07-01T00:44:00.003+08:00

hmmm~ today went find Toilet Paper for lunch..
cos it was her last day to have lunch..although i was a bit late..
then after that i went Orchard Central to study the Tea Class Exam on this coming Friday..

its really hard seriously..but i so far covered the basic of the tea..
tml will follow up on the base..jia you Jonasan~
but tml im working morning omg~
scare i cant wake up sia..

tml and thus will be working mornin and fri exam then sat and sunday wear the Ice Blended thingy..
this week is a happening and busy week for me..
haha XD going slp ler..if not tml cant wake up..

sorry Toilet Paper..make you waited for so long end up you fall aslp..
i just reach home..sweet dreams everyone ^^
sat and sunday if you all free..come see me ba ^^
take the pic ler send it to me so i can blog it =)

2009-06-30T01:34:00.004+08:00

hmmm~ again few days didnt blog i think..haha XD kinda lost track of time..
ytd sunday went for the Last day of Tea Class..
and Friday will be having the Exam..omg~
its so hard for God Sake..really damn hard..

then after that went home and waiting for the night party..
to Celebrate Wellin's Birthday..went to Nana pub..
actually was 7 of us..but 3 didnt make it at the very last minute..
so end up only left 4 of us..but it was still fun ^^

some pics on that day night..
we 4 open a Thai Voka..and got a Sofa Sit ^^ after so long since i last came..
that was before my bro Andy's Birthday..he celebrate early cos he going NS..

birthday girl..

there..the 4 of us..

birthday cake ^^

i look damn ugly omg~

this pic was suppose to be 4 of us..but my skill still sux..end up 3 of them =(

bOoM~ Fire Power..if you got watch Night at Museum 2
Wellin took de..i think she drunk ler..haha XD

Wooo~ cool right..welcome Jon Chia~
my type not Jay Chou if i never spell wrongly =X

Ah Yap~ wear Wellin's Sun Glass trying act me~
not bad ugh..haha XD

yup yup~ look like some Gangster..but im sorry..im under Mafia~
joking neh..haha XD
i so innocent how to be that~

2009-06-28T02:40:00.004+08:00

yea yea~ after so many days nv blog ler..
due to father using my computer and i was tired after so much things~
and today although im also tired but..if i dont blog..i will totally stop blogging..

i cant really rmb what happen for the pass few days..
but anyway today i ate 2 bowls of food~
damn hungry..almost late for class but i didnt..

this is what i ate ^^

Shikin and Ida share..omg~ so little lar..girls ( i roll my eye balls )

and this 2 is Weillin and Peggy..
Peggy i dont know where de..but Weillin is my store de..she also copy me ate 2 bowls~

then went back work..after the class..
was busy when i and Weillin went back..
but only i was in Full Uniform..so Shereen asked me start work now..
i know is bad to ask izzit my pay start at the time i work as in 5.30pm instead of 6.30pm which the roaster plan..but anyway i jus want to know ma..but i scare..so i put here ^^

only for awhile i find that i start to like Orchard Central cos was busy and alot ppl working..
but happy times always ends fast..so yup yup~

and today finally my hse phone is been used by me again..after so long..
although it wasnt a happy moment..
but im still happy after so long ^^ since like its forever..
and there is a very serious problem with me..but i just cant change ma..
haiz..give me up ler ma..?

and tml we will be going out to celebrate Weillin's Birthday..not going to tell you how young is her..
cos i believe female's age is top secret ba~

2009-06-25T02:17:00.006+08:00

Woop~ it was a long day for me ^^
woke up damn early..like around 8am and prepare for the Exam at HQ at 10am..
i reach outside HQ like 9.30am damn early right..but i went in 9.50am..
cos i was stuck inside toilet..haha XD so scare ugh..

then during the assessment Laynah ( if i didnt spell wrongly ) was the one test me..
although i know im a bit lousy..so is like i spent a little bit more time then others..
which is ppl take by Lawrence will end or finish earlier by a bit..

anyway i had a competent for the assessment..haha XD
then after mine i waited for Shikin and Ida for lunch..
when as i thought i can finally go eat..Ida was like : I want take photo of Lawrence le..
then Shikin was like : ugh..okie ugh..haha XD come come..
then there was no one to look what reaction i had..so i jus follow..

okie this was the better one out of the other..
so ya~ everyone is like smiling but me..that's me ^^
anyway after a few takes then Ida and Shikin was like : okie thank you ^^ lets go ba~
and i was like at there talking to myself..

i was like : eRm~ shall we also ask Laynah to take pic too~
no one care what i was talking lar..so sad sia..Lawrence got more handsome then me o.O?
anyway i still did put Shikin and Ida back to take with Laynah ^^ pro right i think so too~ haha XD

okie this was also the better one out of the other ^^
and when we went back to ask her to have a pic with us..she was like : i take pic ugly dont want..
but still she was trying her best to take with us ^^

then after that we went to Tiong Brahur Plaza and walk walk..
cos this 2 Ladies never been to there so ya~
the best part with they 2 went in More Then Words..
and the shop ppl was like looking at them and they didnt even know lar..
still play with the bear bear omg~

then went had lunch tgt at Long John Sliver i think..haha XD
i meant the spelling..then after the meal we went back to work..
only Ida no work..so she went home i think ^^ not sure..
i drop first..then went back start work early..

now i feel im having loads of stress..
need rmb alot things at work and need move myself so i can make it to promo if there is chance..
although i know is still too early for me..but im already 21..

and now my feeling is like a bit want give up and just forcus on work..
cos i find there is nth for me to carry on waiting or even fight for what i want anymore..
maybe im just being selfish or what so ever..
i want to land at an island..but is like all also dont want me =(

haiz so sad right haha XD what to do thats life right..
didnt smoke for today..actually you can count as 2days..
i think i type too long..anyway i also wont even read lor..so long so lazy..haha XD
thats all lar..no one understands me..kill me please..!i!

2009-06-23T01:18:00.003+08:00

hmmm~ today so sad~
whole night im so lonely..then end up i have to sms to kill time..
cos today's manager is first time..as in i first time work with him..
his name Teddy..and Lance crew..both also from phillp..

took some pic during working time..
find it nice so take..anyway when i take there was zero customer..
so ya~ i nv anyhow ugh..

jus in front of the door..
okie lar..a bit far ugh..but i find it cute ^^
so yup yup~ that is all for today at work..

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now is something that is not abt work..
im like starting to become more and more paranoid..
and my illness which is call..double personally is getting more and more serous..

i thought im okie but actually im getting worst..
Lol..dont know how to cure but jus hope it wont get much more worst ^^
i need find a paranoid gf..more paranoid then me..to keep me not paranoid..haha XD
so lame~ omg~ im so scare..

wed is going to take the exam..
the things they teach on sat and sunday..i jus cant get it into my mind..
DIE..i dont want re-take..

oh ya~ i've finish watching Absolute Boyfriend..
how i wish i can have a Absolute Girlfriend..although only i will die..
and no family..but i think is the only thing can be more paranoid then me =X

2009-06-22T01:22:00.004+08:00

Today was the last day to have fun or maybe work or maybe you can put it as learn tgt..
with who..? o.O? of cos that will be Shikin and Ida ^^
as usual Shikin and Ida walk so slowly..
we was late to return after lunch time..

today went KFC but i didnt take pic..cos i was damn hungry..
haha XD so ya~ but we are going to take our Exam for the course ytd and today..
on this coming wed which is on 24th June 2009 at 10am..

everyone please do pray for me that i can pass..
cos i dont want re-take the course again..
not say the during the course is sux or what..
is jus dont want waste time..i want move on..as fast as i can..

didnt take any pic for today..dont know why..lazy or maybe i start to lose my-self once again..
went back with Shikin and Ida by train..but i drop at Bishan..
then took the bus to the shopping centre..dont know how to spell the name..

went had my dinner with Des and John..
have a small chat and i ate 2bowls..
and bOo~ im home here blogging abt it ^^

oh ya..during the course there was a paper abt self-confidence..
and it says 50marks your self-confidence just nice if i didnt rmb wrongly..
and guess how much i get ^^
33marks..Shikin and Ida was like how can be 33marks only..
so funny lar..im like a small kid..so confuse..why cant be 33marks le..

so ya~ im still have the low self-confidence as always..
haiz..i only find one thing Lawernce say was right..
ppl with low self-confidence is becos since young no one ever say any good things abt them..
is always bad things or things that make them think they are useless and all..

although i not totally have no one that thinks that im nice since i was a kid..
but the most important person that i wanted most to think that im good..
he didnt..and he didnt give me what a kid should have..
somethings jus dont need say much..so ya thats all for today ^^

2009-06-20T21:56:00.004+08:00

today went for the course at HQ of The Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf..
is by the WDA..although things that they teach i already know and done before..
but there is still things for me to learn..

things that i can learn and put into good use ^^
although i cant really use all or maybe everything that they teach..
but that is a Perfect thing i can learn ^^

saw Ida and Shikin too..
they also came for the course..so happy to see them again..
cos dont need go down J8 to see them XD

pics took during the lesson and lunch time~

left side is Ida and on the right is Shikin ^^

took this during Lunch at Mac ^^

i also forget which pic is use Ida's phone take de..
cos they say my phone take them so ugly in the pic..
but they all look the same to me XD

and guess who is this..haha XD
didnt style my hair..so ugly lar..omg~
dont ask me who's hand is that..a girl i dont really know..and she was like joining in the fun..

after the course went down Orchard Central to check it out..
starting Shereen ask me to work..
but then dont need ler..so yup yup~

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so tired but the drama Absolute Boyfriend is seriously nice..
after so much i watch i want cry through out the show..
although is about a girl that is looking for her real love..

but the rebot - Night Kun is starting to have human's feelings..
in other words..he is changing to become like a human..
all the love, hates and care..

and because of that they want to destroy Night Kun..
and she didnt even care how much he have done for her..just because she thinks that he is a robot..
damn she..and she is falling in love with her Chief..

hate this part man..
why the person or ppl that is in love cant have or be with the person they love..
WHY..!i! kill me please..how i wish i can have my Absolute Girlfriend..!i!

OMG~ I WANT BE IN LOVE AGAIN..!i!
I WANT FIND MY LOVE AGAIN..!i!

2009-06-19T23:18:00.004+08:00

hmmm~ i also forget what really happen for the pass 2days..

anyway this are the few pics of the Orchard Central Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf ^^
and this Flower was given by the Orchard Central's ppl i think..

then ytd went out with my working frenz..
hope this outing will have a good time working with them ^^
have some pic of them ^^

dont know how to spell their name..maybe next time ba..haha XD

2009-06-18T01:14:00.003+08:00

today at work still the same..
not much customer..
and today supporting have a crew from Junction 8 come over to do closing de..
but he/she didnt show up..so end up the tall guy doing closing..

and tml is me and him only..hope he will show up..
and so far i cannot recall i saw him before..
hope he know how to do closing ^^ if not i'll die..

today we have alot chatting time..
and i dont think im those hot temp guy right..
but seriously when i was talking with the tall guy i almost feel like giving him a punch..
he is like finding trouble with me..gosh~

anyway we have talk things out so ya~
i think we'll be fine ^^
is seriously hard to put different store ppl in a store..
so yup~ that is all for today..

hope tml i can wake up early before Toilet Paper's lunch time..
cos i always didnt make it to wake up..
so yup~ im going slp early tonight ^^ no games for me =(

2009-06-17T01:01:00.003+08:00

First day at Orchard Central..
hmmm~ dont know how to say..not busy but a bit too cold~
as in quiet..maybe first day ba..

today so many big boss came down..so hard to work im telling you..
cos there is alot crew but little customers..
and the big bosses is like watching you..

so ya~ this is all ba..nth much to blog abt..
but today saw Karen, Toshin, Amber, Daphne and Des..
they all came down..but different time ^^
although is not come to see me..but im so happy to see them again ^^

miss you guys so much T_T
but i hear there will be alot changes..so is like i can no longer go back and work with you guys ler..
so sad right =(

today also saw Kim..she came over work O.T
cos everyone thought today will be so busy..
but anyway here's the joke starts..

Shereen was telling Kim go say hi to our biggest boss over there..
cannot so rude..then she was like aiya~ dont need lar..
then i was saying this "kim you go there hit his head then say : hey hey yo yo~ "
then after he knock his head you both will do the hip hop ppl's hand movement and both say yO~

hmmm~ saying this joke in words is not that funny..
but seriously after i say..everyone's face is as red as babu's butt..
haha XD hmmm~ thats all for today ba..hope tml i go work no one will talk abt what happen today..
no matter good or bad =X

2009-06-16T01:26:00.003+08:00

hmmm~ tml going start work lor..
today nth much to blog abt..jus went down Junction 8 the last time to see my smile =)
cos its far away from my hse..and i dont think i will go down..
unless there is sth i need go there for..

yup yup..this were the ppl working tonight ^^
and the place..i guess i just have to view them through my pics..

hmmm~ i know is wrong to take other ppl..
but this guy is such a idiot..try act so cool..and he act in a way that all the girls wants him badly..
and you know what i hear when i feel that way..
he was shouting for his mommy what to take..
omg~ kill me..i think im million times better then him okie~ haha XD

before i decided to go Junction 8 i was at the station..
was sitting there for quite awhile..then 2 ppl also sitting there and pei me..
haha XD but they sat there longer..nth to do so took their pics..
sorry my bad..please dont kill me ^^

omg~ if i didnt hear wrongly..this show "Absolute Boyfriend" will be on tv every Friday 11.30pm
and i cant watch it..so i went to Youtube to watch first..
only the first Episode i want cry already..
is a girl that cant have a real love..but im so touch..so long nv cry..
but i didnt cry lar..cos i still cant cry..only eyes is wet..
but please watch this..is DAMN nice..
wonder who will this girl pick..but robot is still a robot..poor him =(

2009-06-15T00:39:00.002+08:00

today nth to blog abt..
so..yup~ thats all haha XD

tml off..so sad off on a monday..can die..
cos gonna work 6days straight le..
tuesday Orchard Central then open..

hope i will have the feel of working there as i always feel when i working at Junction 8
may god bless me ^^

2009-06-14T03:07:00.024+08:00

tml going to HQ for lesson..
and guess what is part 2 for the lesson..Lol..
so weird..i only go on the second part..dont know whether this still count i complete..?
haha XD hope i not monday off..
cos Daphne say Tuesday then Orchard Central opens..

really dont want monday off..that sux..
and wonder how will my life be when i work there..kinda miss Junction 8's ppl..
today took a pic of Karen ^^

but she was looking at John's phone instead mine..so bad..
she is the best manager i work with..
cos she is a bit lazy..and she seldom care much abt us ^^
so to me is i can have loads of spaces for me to show my skills..
not because i want do things that cannot do..

cos if working with other manager..maybe..
i say maybe ugh..they work longer then me..so of cos they are better..then they will think i sure cannot make it..so would have more look out for me ^^ is a show of care..

but so far..i think im getting better then getting worst in there..
although only the crew there think im good at handling customers..
or ways i make the customers feel easy..but im still happy..
at least my skill is able to let others saw..

but i believe when the time the managers want see it..
i surely unable to cope..and i will spoil everything..haha XD
weak me..

***** My Joke Of The Day *****

oh ya..almost forgot..
this is damn funny i think..haha XD
this girl..which everyone calls her ah lian..i think she just start learning EB ( Espresso and Brew )
and suddenly got alot ppl order EB drinks instead IB ( Ice Blended )
and i was doing the IB then ah lian doing the EB and John was helping her..

she suddenly shout my name and ask me save her..Lol..
damn funny..then John was like wth face to ah lian..then i also was like wth..
John worked 2yrs ( i think ) and she never ask John to help instead ask me who is just a month old in Coffee Bean..damn funny..then i was like telling her how can she be so rude..

i dont know how to explain..but seriously if you were there..look at our face..
damn FUNNY..

2009-06-13T15:18:00.004+08:00

going to work soon lor..
feel so shit..why i have the girl most powerful skill..being paranoid..
haiz..lucky im a guy..if not i could be worst..haha XD

i now going prepare for work ler..
Toilet Paper dui bu qi..
always make you angry and sad..
but im born with this skill is really hard for me to control it..

i also dont know when you will have the chance to read this post..
but i still will say..cos this is the only place for me to voice out..

how i wish i am still a small kid..when the time everything was so smooth..
hate to grow up..
want forever be a small kid where there is nth i need to care and think abt..
it sux..want lie in a warm arms where i can just do whatever i like and want..
haiz..kill me please..

when can i find the Happiness that leads me to my Success..?
where everything is smooth for me..and nth will stands me my way to what i want..
i need the power..the power of Love or just the power of Might..

bOo~ Fire Power by Night at the Museum 2

2009-06-13T02:30:00.005+08:00

hey yO~
im back ^^ to Junction 8 hehe..
many days didnt blog cos was busy ^^
miss me right =X

lets start with today..today suppose to go Orchard Central but i got Shereen's call at 12noon and i was told to go Junction 8..i was still slping and when i full awake i was thinking was it a dream =X

so yup~ this week still at Junction 8
reach there Toshin was saying " see you cant leave us..you have to come back here "
Lol..say until i cant wait to leave Junction 8 but anyway working where is not the point..
is the ppl that must be nice to work with ^^

omg~ i forget how to spell her name..anyway i was taking this pic..then the YEO WEN HUI also taking.. but her phone have the red light..haha XD
and this is the YEO WEN HUI..everyone there calls her ah lian.. right side she is Zalyn if i not right..i mean the spelling.. she keep calling me small boy..where got small boy so handsome right..haha XD
okie..hmmm~ i went out on thusday..after set up at Orchard Central..
catch a movie " Ghost of Girlfriend Past " beside Orchard Central..
i tell you ugh..when i was working..that stupid Tony say i spoiling The Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf Logo lar..
i last touch means i make spoil..i tell him not me then he reply me " ya lar..i make spoil de not you "
small kid lar..omg~ so old ler still act cute..
seriously lor..inside Coffee Bean ugh..all male only treat female nice..
always kena scold by male..damn suay..

and i realise that manager..when i know how to spell then i will put..
he like ask me do what he want me to do even thought im doing something..
or maybe he is trying to pick on me again..but anyway..
i dont want find trouble..so i just take it he is like this..

okie..i was saying i went catch a movie after my work at Orchard Central..
with the Toilet Paper ^^ and we went to had dinner tgt..
at the Pasta Maniac ( how do you spell that..? )

this is what i ate on that night ^^ Spicy Chicken and this is what she ate but i dont know how to spell it =( she say it taste sux..

2009-06-10T01:04:00.006+08:00

omg~ i've end my 2nd of my long off days =(
one more to go before i go back to work..
today i bought my new BAG ^^
with some help of cos..cmi when im alone..haha XD

is not a girl's bag..is jus i dont know how to take the pic~
bought this at Bugis Street and then went to Clementi to meet mommy for dinner~

and she drive to Bukit Temah if i didnt spell wrongly..
i also dont know what shop or restaurant is that..?

nvm hear before..haha XD
and i was the one buying the bills..cos im suppose to treat mommy eat when i get my pay..
so yup~ this was my treat to her ^^

look at this man..
does this look a lot to you o.O? for just 4 person..
no right..i think is not even enough haha XD

now i'll tell you who ate what ^^
although i didnt took their pics..cos they all wear too simple..
and i didnt tell my mommy i've got a blog..later she kill me cos she once again was the last 1 to know =X

this is mine ^^ Espresso and it SUX cmi to the limit..

all this above is all mine ^^ lazy to put down the names ^^ anyway they all taste like..
im speechless..i think you should know what i mean~

this is what mommy ate jus now ^^
never ask what was this but is a Pasta if you can see ^^
i bet its not that nice also..cos the stupid shop was an hour to their closing..
they just sux..

this is what mommy's bf order..
some chicken thingy with cheese on the top..

and this what what the person that pei me go buy my bag ate ^^
i think this is chicken chop ba..haha XD

and then this is my mommy's car..small small de..
but the person beside the car is not my mommy ^^

so long never go out with mommy ler ^^ and today i did..
dont know when is the next time to go out with mommy again =(

today start off with a word..bad..
cos im not being wanted from the time i woke up till the time i go out..
damn sad to feel not being wanted you know..

haiz dont say ler..makes me so sad..
but at least the night time was good ^^
but when i reach home it went back to bad..cos that Toilet Paper slp and nv let me know..
and then she call me to sms her again..but end up..haiz..dont say ler..

how long does this have to carry on..

please listen to my blog song..maybe you will understand =S
i dont even understand this song lar..Lol..anyhow only =X

2009-06-09T14:13:00.003+08:00

ytd nth much to post abt so didnt blog..
haiz..this 3days is worst then having 1day off..
i cant even find anyone to pei me lar..i got so much things to buy but there is no one there for me..

pick and fetch her up and down..meet for 1hour and i have to rot for 3 to 4 hours..
today can meet ler..but she not free..damn~
i got my off i got my pay..but there is no one for me..

im speechless now..dont know is sad or happy~
im going out ALONE now..gotta walk out there on the street and let everyone to laugh at..
why this person so lonely have to go out alone..

not in the mood now..F up off day i ever had..

2009-06-08T01:27:00.005+08:00

i've end my last day of work at Junction 8..
feel kinda sad..cos is my last day at there..
but i think i will go down if i've something near there ^^

Miss you guys & girls ^^

didnt have the chance to took all their pic but is all inside my mind..

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gonna spent my off days at home ba..
haiz..today im in such a lousy mood..face black black..and i make her angry again..
i just really dont get it why must we hide..?
if 2 person in love with each other..then why must care what others think or see..

nvm..maybe is not what i think..
if she dont get me in time..i seriously will give up..cos i really dont feel i've been wanted..
im so confuse..so blurr..so arh~
can you just control me..keep me comfort in your arms..
i feel so helpless and hopeless in a blank..

God save me..teach me..help me..stop putting me into hell~
what wrong have i done for God sake~

2009-06-07T02:47:00.005+08:00

Toilet Paper i tell you i'll do it when i reach home ^^
and this is it..

3 Things I won't Forget abt you :

Your shampoo smell ^^
The times you show sweet and caring part of you ^^
Your Kiss =X

1 Thing i thought when i first get to know you :

i didnt even think when i first get to know you..dont know how to answer~

Name i want call you :

Laopo

I save your name in my phone as :

this question i dont think you want me answer right ^^

The word/s that best describe you :

Hmmm~ when there is no but just you and me..you really show me what love is..
when you are at or ppl you may bang into us..you are such a stranger to me..

I want be your :

the only guy that you will think, love, have fun, share your pain/sadness, live, marry, family and die with ^^

What do i like in you :

things that i cant find from others ^^

What do i want change in you :

if i would want change you then you are no longer the person i love =X

i've reply to your sms ler ^^
today is a damn dirty day at work..and a damn tiring day for me..
today i so-call solo the Food station~

although is not much orders..but seriously it has already killed me..haha XD
lucky Daphne came in to save me ^^
if not i wont be here to blog ^^

2nd last day at Junction 8 feel kinda sad cos im gotta miss you guys T_T
but i believe we will meet again someday =X

today im happy ^^ most of the customers finish the food i made ^^
but i swear to God the kitchen is like a mess~
i see also cmi ( cannot make it )
why i so dirty~ then i came out and there is a new girl working..

she is also making a mess outside ^^ haha XD
but i was like Eeee~ so dirty..ya lar..i know my side also dirty lar..
anyway..tml last day..hope i can take all their pics~

and i have to clear my off's before going to Orchard Central..
sobsob T_T want keep it for my birthday and Toilet paper's birthday..
cos i want to be there when she is happy ^^

but anyway..today woke up earlier to find her..
had lunch and i went home took a nap =X

2009-06-06T00:38:00.004+08:00

today is my off day yea~ but is a very tiring day..
gosh~ worst then working..and im suppose to buy my working pants and new bag and cut my hair..
but there is a very tiny little small problem and everything have to wait..
haiz..but today spent so much..i feel so heart pain..

going no money again =(
today went meet toilet paper( chinese word ) for lunch de..but she have some problem..
and i went down just for a drink that only last 10mins..

and i took cab home cos i wanted go home and in need for toilet..
and it cost me $9 from Bedok to my hse opposite..
then i fall aslp and was late for meeting her as in fetch her..

but she also haven leave so in the end jus nice..
then we decided to have our dinner at Pizza Hut ^^
as we was walking towards there..we saw an old man ( scammer ) and he say he just had an operation for his leg..and he didnt bring his wallet..and he is hungry..cant walk back..cos far..
ask me to give him $2..anyway at that point of time i already know is a lie..
but i still give..and at the very next second after we walk off..
the toilet paper turn back and he was gone..Lol..

damn funny lar..just had an operation..dotz..
this are the pic i took when we are inside the Pizza Hut ^^

Soup Of The Day ^^

Chicken Meat Ball Pasta ^^

Hawaiie Pizza ^^ nice right..

ppl there only a few is good..but is more then enough..
as in friendly..
damn sweet im telling you..although is different from my other ex r/s
but is just so sweet ^^ although today didnt go as my plan..
but i think is all worth it ^^

Toilet Paper..i didnt write your name ugh ^^

2009-06-05T00:44:00.005+08:00

today went to the HDB Hub work and guess who i saw there..?
the manager that went with me for the course in The Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf..
i was shock i saw her there..gosh~ cos she just transfer to there this monday..

didnt took the pic of there..cos only 2ppl doing closing and her..
and i was doing all the food there ^^ im so proud of myself..haha XD
cos all my customer finish their food ^^

and during closing..i went out for toilet..and guess what..
i lock myself out and cant find my way back..
cos after 11pm all the doors are lock..only for exits..
but end up i still found my way back ^^

this few days im starting to slack alot..during work and blog..
cos very tired..anyway ytd i went out with you know who to catch a movie right..

this is the movie we watch ^^ damn nice..
although only a Night in the Museum..
but is more then enough..

but the most important thing is the last part..cos earning alot is not everything you live in life..
is living with ppl you love and cares is what makes you live in life..
although i can say but i really cant follow..cos i've never had enough on the things i want..

2009-06-04T02:06:00.003+08:00

today almost faint in train while going to Junction 8 work..
lucky i use to this feeling..can tahan until there ^^ then faster drink water ler =X

just hang my hse phone ^^ so happy can use..although the pass 1hour was just erm~ arh~ orh~
but it was worth it..cos is the person that is on the other side ^^
ytd slpt at 4am woke up at 8am..damn early lar..
didnt except i can wake up haha XD

went out with you know who..and we catch a movie before i go for work ^^
although i feel sweet and happy when i with her..but she just have too much frenz..
makes me so irritated..and i keep make her angry and sad..

and im so scare she will leave me and dont want me..but anyway she also didnt say she wants me..
so all this while is i one sided love =(
so sad right..haha XD no lar..she also love me ba..just she say she got alot to think..
and i dont know what..anyway i dont want know what she is thinking..
i just want her answer..

she tml going her fren's birthday AGAIN..!i!
and is at Bugis..so near my hse lar..but i work HDB Hub..damn far can..haiz..
fated we cant be tgt =X
dont know will we be tgt anot o.O?

2009-06-03T02:31:00.006+08:00

today i guess im happy ba..cos pay is out ^^ and i finally paid my bills..
not scare it will cut off again..like always do..
total spent on bills was $200 and i still owe my grandma $200 for last months bill..
bought a hse phone..finally after so long..i finally got a hse phone ^^
but the bills is all on me..i felt so tired and stress..full of bills..
money money money..i need earn damn alot..

but i dont want just work through out my life..i also want something that money cant buy..
but no money there is nth i can do or to have..cos now money is my everything..

today the transport uncle didnt send me home straight after work..
he went Orchard to pick others..first time..feel kinda weird but it was something new..

feel very moody i think..feel like vomiting and sick..
but who cares right..is you not me..why i care..even frenz only like oh..then take care lor..
what else you want..Lol..humans..

anyway took a few pics of my new hse phone..i guess i'll slowly earn the things i think i should have long ago..
slowly ba..im really sick and tired of keep starting from the start..doing things over and over again..
really kills me a lot..so tired..want be like last time..
jus like a small kid..someone there for me..

dream on..haha XD
how old ler..still want act like a small kid..grow up..
the world wont wait for you..
need see a doctor..a doctor that can heals me..but is expensive..

this is a fly..found in Junction 8..and its suppose to post on ytd's post..
but i think this few days im a bit lost..so forgot abt this..
no matter how hard we want chase off this fly..it just wont even move..
damn funny..so i took a close shot ^^

2009-06-02T02:21:00.005+08:00

today also another quiet night~
actually wanted to slp de..cos my father was using my comp..
but he wake me up and tell me i dont want to use ler..then i was like dotz..
but nvm..i also can blog ^^

today i have a cut on my finger again..do things damn slow..
felt lost..i cannot get injure..once im injure i dont know how to work..haha XD

but today im so proud of myself..cos i've handle 3 customers on my own ^^
cos Karen was busy with sth i think..
first one was a customer that wants to buy French Press..is a kinda some thingy that Brew's Coffee..
and he also bought a pack of Coffee Beans..and he keep asking how to make stronger taste of coffee..
although im not well train..but i still can handle him myself..smart right ^^

then after this..Karen went up to close Kiosk ( if i didnt spell wrongly ) is a smaller type..
and my finger was injure..so we kinda stuck..
then have this 2 group of youngsters..is different group anyway..
so irritating..want this dont want that..

and i think John was tired after a long day..so yup~ i'll handle the customers myself..
and today was my day..i hit the right spot and they all give me back with a smile =)
but closing was bad..and im now very tired..

tml will be getting me pay..finally..in need of cash now..
want smoke but no money buy T_T but have to quit..haiz..
now i've blog and i shall play ^^ what to do..i have no life..
other then having a gf..game is my life..
so when will i have one =X

2009-06-01T01:46:00.003+08:00

i now damn no mood..no bcos of work..but is something else..
is not a thing..is someone..im actually very hungry but i dont feel like eating..
but i have to finish the soup my grandma made before i start blogging..

i've went read through all her frenz blog..maybe you think im such an ass..
anyhow go ppl's blog..but im really worry and i care..
but all her frenz blog didnt post anything abt her..

so now im still kinda feeling lost..
feeling so lonely..feeling so helpless..want make her feel happy but i think end up make things worst..
i seriously didnt mean it..i reach home my father was using my comp..
the tone i talk to him that i want use comp is really harsh..
but i dont care..i just want see is she still online..

went to this guy's blog..saw her tag him..
words that makes me feel mad..but i think is me thinking too much..
so long..really so long..i've nv felt this way since like nearly a year..
but is not that i dont want or dont like..
but i believe this is call love..i've fall in love once again..

kill me please..can anyone tell me what is she doing now..?
how is her now..? is she okie..? so many questions but no one to answer..
being paraonid is what i do best..but is the thing that she dont like..
gosh~ God take this away from me..cos i want be with her..

2009-05-31T02:27:00.003+08:00

today is my first day working with Daphne and i can tell you is real good ^^
cos she change the music..so many new songs ^^

and the Khairul quit the job..dont know i should be happy or sad o.O?
got i dont know if he not working anymore then i've have to clean all the shit =X
anyway today we finish at around 1.10am ^^
got pro working so finish fast..

this was the third pic i took..first 2 cannot show..so i deleted ler ^^
she say just take..cos she tried..dont want smile ^^

actually today wanted take something i know..
as in my meal ^^ but those wont make me full..so i end up making Pasta Chicken & Mushroom..
but with a bit vege ^^ i only took 4 pcs..didnt take alot..

dont scold me okie ^^ want stay healthy ma ^^
but seriously still not full haha XD
only that day Toshin let me eat his meal then i full..

My Stomach is as big as the ( missing words ) haha XD

2009-05-30T03:08:00.005+08:00

haiz..today suppose to be a very good and enjoyable day..
cos i thought it will be..but end up not..

today never kena yell or face idiot customers..
very thing went smoothly but a person can change everything good into bad..
and im not going name the person..cos i dont want find fault..

i really dont understand that why wont anyone in F&B line wont want push ppl away..
if there is no ppl want to work..then they will only suffer right..?
in their thinking is doing clear table is a hell..
so they like push NEW ppl to do that..

anyway she is also not very senior in there..just started there early..
she cant even handle a slam or so..
and she want order ppl around..gosh~ give me a break..

what does a senior must do..is to guide and follow up with the newbie..
aint i right..? and not push newbie and die right..?
just like how parents should be doing..
so i purposely do my closing and i want see whether she will move or give a helping hand..

i stack all the tables and chairs..okie this a bit blur ugh..

i was taking my pic of my great job Elmi walk and take too ^^

there everything..and i really mean everything..and it was already 1.10am
then i tell you..EVERYONE helped me..but her..she just sit there and eat her cake..
can you imagine..even manager helped but her..for god sake..
you call yourself a senior..

she always give me that face that i must listen to her cos she is the senior _l_
then your children will die under your hands..
i'll rmb what or how you treat me..i'll treat you double better how you did to me ^^

Karen, John and Elmi im sorry for making you all put back the tables and chairs..

i just dont like work as a strangers..if dont need teamwork then why a shift need so many ppl..
why dont just put a manager thats all..

*************

qin ai de..dui bu qi yin wei wo ai ni ^^

i really miss you loads..and i just cant stop thinking or saying all the words that hurts you..
cos my past really left me a bad memorise..

2009-05-29T01:28:00.003+08:00

today i feel so cock up at work..during the closing time..
and today i have 2 stupid customers that think they are right..
i like to think back last time..but just if i know my ground well..today i wont even kena yell at..
anyway is not my fault that the machine have problem right..

anyway Toshin wanted me to teach that Khairul close EB ( Espresso & Brew ) and cakes..
but is like there is so much to do..and he want catch the last train..
so end up i tell him this is cannot make it de..

and end up i become like John..did most of the things and the rest just do their stations..
gosh~ damn tired..clearing tables is everyone..Azmil ( if i didnt spell wrongly ) he knows cashier and Food..
so i cant expect him to clear tables right..but the Khairul can at least help out ma..

he just stand there..only when Toshin calls then he go..and when Toshin not around i will call him go =X
bad..? i dont think so ba..rather then he stand there..at least if anyone comes wont say why so dirty right..
today damn busy..so much things to do..and is like only when Azmil is outside..then is nice to work..
Toshin do cashier is gone case..not that i do shotcuts or what..

just he dont believe what i can do..but at least today he didnt touch me when i doing EB ( Espresso & Brew ) ^^ that makes me happy..and he let me eat his staff meal too ^^ today is the first day i at The Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf eaten full..haha XD

this was made by Elmi ( if i didnt spell wrongly ) its Chicken Wrap..
nice right..

this is also Chicken Wrap..but is made by myself me ^^ so ugly..
still need more training..

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tonight is so quiet..cos she slpt early..tired after a long day..
i find there is so many things different btw us..
the later it gets the hyper i gets..she is the other way round..
wont be getting my paid any earlier..cos i have to take it from my Outel Manager Shereen..
and have to wait for few days..so many things to paid..hope they wont cut off..
if not you all wont see me online =(

2009-05-28T01:42:00.003+08:00

today sounds like kena scold by Toshin..
stupid ass customer dont even know the taste like then keep saying is i make not good enough..
end up throw away and make one more..also i make what~
what's the different..some stupid act smart JC students..
thought can get free drinks..gosh~ cos Toshin dont understand chinese..

but anyway if i tell him i dont even think he believes me..
so didnt tell him..as long i know not my fault can ler..let him scold lor =P
today Toshin was able to board his last train..cos John did alot for that Khairul..

i also got help okie..just never put in only..later say i so idiot never help them..
just like hands dirty doesnt mean you got work ugh ^^
at work always nv eat enough..
cos now im eating again =X

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today i was damn angry or maybe is just emo~
there is this girl i like..she is like totally opposite me..im sticky type..she is not..
you get what i mean..? to me break ler is a stranger..
cos how you start then how it should end..to me ugh..
but anyway..that wasnt what i want to say out..
cos i've already forget everything when i talk to her on phone ^^

so i came out this thing..
when you really love someone..no matter what he/she did..you will forgive and love he/she once again..
thats what i think..just like parents to their children..
no matter how bad they become..they still love them~

im talking abt love..not abt other things..
is like i really hardly get mad at someone for damn long..
cos i love everyone ^^
and when you love someone that deep or much..
you will do alot things that hurt the person..

cos you have already forgot what or how love is like..
you will make the other person mad or angry then you will reliase what is really going on..
and if this person really loves you..you 2 will be as normal..
if not will be like me ^^

2009-05-27T14:08:00.006+08:00

ytd reach home was like damn tired so didnt blog..
i dont know am i able to post what happen ytd but i think nth special to blog about too..
just went out have dinner with someone and went home ler..

2more days for my paid out..im damn in need of cash lar..
haiz..so many things to buy or to pay but so little i can earn..kill me please..

ytd took a cab home..cos there was no bus and train for me..
then i ask my sis to help me pay first..cos i have no money =(
and you know what..she except me to return her by this week..
i was like WTH ( What The Hell ) she take my money without asking i also didnt ask her when to return..
cos i know even if she return the next day she will take without asking again..

does this call steal..? i dont know..
is sux to be in this family..one small little bad thing already going kill me ler..
half of my family is bad..how can i actually live till now..i wonder..haha XD

2009-05-26T02:24:00.003+08:00

wa~ today very late then reach home..
you know why..? cos the transport today was a new driver..as in new uncle..
and we was like from 12.25mid-night waited for the transport until 1.25am..
and Salihin called Karen..cos only i and him was waiting..Toshin took a cab cos he was in a rush..

then when the transport came..the uncle said his other transport uncle that was suppose to pick us up..
said that there nobody..so he leave and went to Orchard..Lol..is like some misunderstanding..
and he said he waited there at the Bus Stop since 12.30am till 12.50am..

he must be joking seriously..cos Salihin, Toshin and i was at the Bus Stop from 12.25am till 12.35am..
then Toshin took a cab home..
is very messy..i dont even understand what i typing also..haha XD

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ytd mid-night..Pei Qi called me ^^ she say she had a Nightmare..
kinda think of it..is seriously sacry..
if me i'll cry out..although i know i no longer have tears..

but who say guys cant be scare of that ^^
so dont say what ugh..today she slpt early..but im gonna slp slighty a bit late..cos i tml off ^^
and in case she have Nightmares again..not i want ugh..just in case..

anyway i dont always do that..so mayb jus for this time ^^
i cant wait for my pay out..i got so much to pay..
my internet bills is $80 and my phone bills is $110..
and i still owe my grandma $200..gosh~ i need promo to earn more..

im a guy..need earn damn alot to have a family..and i want..
jia you~ although somethings cant rush..but i hope i can promo ^^

working in The Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf is like in army..
you are newbie you get bully..i think..
cos there is alot things i see others can do but i cant..
and please dont use this reason to make me clean your shit~

yes i want promo to become a manager..but doesnt mean you can always say..
you have to do this or that..im trying to push you and become a manager..
you dont earn this for a living..but i do..so please dont kill me before i have my family..

this words is not from Shereen or Toshin or Daphne or Karen..
not from the crew there..
but i just really feel hard to mix into their family..as in Coffee Bean..
im not giving up..cos i have to hold on..but please really teach me what i must learn..
and not bully or make my career ends here..

2009-05-25T00:23:00.004+08:00

Today end work early..so went out with Pei Qi ^^
and her fren Wing Yi..
cos they was near my working place..so i decided to meet them for dinner ^^

alone went to City Hall and walk to Marina Square and find them..
then we went to the Food Court and have this Old Hong Kong thingy..
omg~ is like Yong Tau Foo lar..
then when is my turn to pick the food i want..im so lost lar..
then Wing Yi totally forget abt me..haiz..lucky Pei Qi still rmb hehe ^^

this is what i ate..i dont find it nice..seriously..

this is what they 2 ate..and they say its nice..
then Wing Yi say she went out with others guys and they all say not nice..
but seriously i dont find it nice lor..

that is all for today outside work ^^

i slowly think i can work well with the manager..but i dont know how to spell his name..
but anyway..today FIRST day working with Shereen..
sobsob T_T she like so scary..maybe she is my OM ( Outlet Manager )
so she gives me the feeling is scary..not like Junction 8 the OM..

then Tony came down again..i like so suay..keep seeing him..omg~
i only want see him when i think i can be manager..cos i want prove to him i can..
now i still learning and so much to learn..then he keep coming down..

i cannot keep thinking abt that..
now just jia you in my work ^^

2009-05-24T02:57:00.004+08:00

today work at Iluma and im late lar..sobsob ^^
but i got return okie..my break time i only use 20mins..i still return extra 5mins..
anyway i also dont eat that long..always give back the minutes..
i also dont care that much lar..eat finish jiu work lor..why want sit there look at everyone work..
is like so weird lar..not my type..

Daphne how you got my link de..like this i cannot say too much ler..later when i go back i will have hard life =X
joking ugh..hehe..i very easy will emo de..i emo i will slowly work..if i normal then i will move fast..
never work with you before..cos you always morning de..

today at Iluma i found out i know how to make flower shape for Ice Blended w/e Whip Cream ^^

not very clear lar..but can see right ^^ cos cannot take pic at customers drink ma..
so close shop ler then take de ^^

this is not abt work ^^
went Shenton Way to have lunch at Subway ^^

forget what it is..but it was nice eating with the person ^^
food was just side order =X

then waited for her lesson to finish i went around and sit around..

this place is nice..but i tell you there is like a dead city..
no much ppl walk or hang around..weird weird de..

then i went StarBucks and try their Ice Blended =X

not bad..but is like very sweet..almost sweet to death lar..
and after i drink finish i went toilet..gosh~
i wonder when i maked Ice Blended for customers did they went toilet too ^^

no ppl..only me inside this store..haha XD
and they closes at 3pm..so weird..but they open till very late also pointless..cos no ppl..

look at me..so white my face..gosh~
seriously not enough slp..and i look like a ghost~
haha XD now must go slp ler..tml working 11am to 7pm =)

2009-05-23T02:54:00.005+08:00

i am damn angry for today..gosh~
today at work sux..so many ppl and so many rubbish to throw..
and a group of idiots purposely make my floor with Ice Blended drinks..

and why i must always be the one close dinning..? really it sux..
and you know what..there is this thingy on the door that write who do what and what..
and during opening hours..EVERYONE is suppose to clear tables..
i tell you not really EVERYONE does that okie..

then nvm..i do lor..then when i go clear so got more customers can have sits..
but that is this girl always give me that kind of look..
her look was like : hey! there is so many customer coming in where the hell are you think you are going?
she just think im trying to run away..maybe she think im a newbie and want run..

please i more happy when loads of customers come in..
cos its fun and time fly faster..anyway..today i reach work..
Tony came..who the hell is him..dont know how to explain..but i wanted take a pic of him but i forgot..
anyway he is my boss..a person that i most prove to him i can be a manager ^^

but that is not what i want to say..i want to say..when i just reach work..
Dephane was asking me who close EB ( Espresso & Brew ) last night..cos very dirty..
maybe she thinks it was me who close that last night..
how can i be dirty when during opening hours i want it clean..?
i took some pics that what i do during my closing..i remove or put aside everything and clean de okie..

i know..you will think aiya..only for show..next time i work i wont do..if i have empire time i can do it damn clean..but i only have an hours time..and that sux..

her name is Shikin..she only work once a week if i didnt hear wrongly..
and she whole day keep telling me she is pretty~ gosh~
she is copying me lar..not bad looking right..she quite sweet lar ^^

after everyone left and only left 3 of us waiting for the transport..
guess what i found out..i forget take my aporn..
you will think its okie what..tml also going back there to work..
and guess what..im going Iluma work on Saturday and Sunday lar..
tml have to wake up damn early to go Junction 8 take before i go Iluma work..
sobsob T_T so sad..stupid me..so angry until forget take..haiz

2009-05-22T02:20:00.004+08:00

im done with everything as in eat and bathed ^^
nth much happen today at work..everything is the same..only today i've been visited again ^^
so happy hehe =)
not going to say who..its my secret so yup yup..
today only i wait for the transport..so sad..all leave me alone there wait..
later i kena rape how..i so handsome..haha XD but i today didnt style my hair..
cos of the stupid deep cut on my finger =(

was smsing with someone..but i think this few days she have been waiting for me so not enough slp..
and she fell aslp after i bath come out ^^

i want be a manager but the things i know and i can be able to do makes me think i think..
i will be forever a crew..gosh~ im already 21 soon..how can i feed my family if i forever is a crew..
hope i can strike by lightning and become smart..not toast ugh..

anyway all i can do is to wait for my chance to prove im able..
so meanwhile i have to be able..and there is many more things i have to wait..
and wait is the only thing i can do right now..even i want fight for it also still have to wait..

BASHA Jonasan..!i!

2009-05-21T02:35:00.009+08:00

Today i end work damn early lar..12.20am we finish everything ler..
cos today's manager want take last train home =(
so have to rush here and there..gosh~ i dont even know i can do it..but i did it..haha XD of cos with some help..
today was my last to see Janah ler..

Jonasan to Janah : Janah dont sad okie ^^ last day see me..but we still can contact at blog ^^

took a pic of her..although she die die dont want let me take..but i still took a pic of her haha XD
and today the Khariual guy came down after his EB ( Espresso and Brew ) class..
and i also took a pic of her too ^^ actually was going take and talk abt his MacDonald's belt..
but is like everyone have the same feeling and thinking abt him..

i start to feel is bad to talk bad abt him..so i decided not to say anything bad abt him..
and i'm going to help him and be his fren from my bottom of my heart..
anyway he is going to Orchard Cental with me de..so i think we should work as a team ^^

Janah..hmmm~ although this is a bit tired face..but still not bad right ^^

and he is the guy im talking abt ^^ he is a high scorer le..for his studys..i swear..pro is all i can say..

today before this 2 came..i cut my finger lar..and its my middle finger..
cut by a cake box..gosh~ and its a deep cut..
then BOSS help me put plaster..so sweet right..although is something small but is lager then the world..
haha XD i know is a bit over =X

2009-05-20T01:06:00.007+08:00

I've reach home from a short but fun and enjoyable day ^^
today slpt at 8am i think..wake up at 4pm..then went out meet someone..
yup yup is that someone again..she say cant put her name..and i also cant put her fren's pic..
so today's blog is just me ^^ thank you..miss my handsome face right =x

i look tired dont i..? haha XD

also dont know why i want take my pic this way..
i find it so idiot..

im holding this super power..haha XD
then power of Handsome..not Handsome Suit ugh..haha XD

this was what i was doing before the someone reach PS ( Plaza Singapura )
cos from my hse only need 15mins to reach so meanwhile take some handsome pic first ^^

then went there catch this movie..this movie is damn confuse lar..only starting and middle part is ghostly..
then ending is scary..but the story is not those normal story line..
not bad for the story line..but not my type of movie i wanted to watch..
after the movie seriously my face i think is white..

this is what i ate..Pineapple Rice and Tom Yam Soup~ i still hungry lar..so little..

this is what the someone ate ^^ Tom Yam Hor Fun if i not wrong~
you know what she feed me ^^ so sweet..although im not the only one she feeds..
but at less i got a bit sweet she have haha XD

this is what another girl ate..but i dont know what is this call..
and she was talking on the phone with her parents i think..and i only have the chance to take this pic..
after she touch..so this not the first look when it gets to our table ^^

then we went to Thai Restaurant to have our dinner ^^ starting there is 4 of us..
but after the movie the guy have other party later on..so he left first =(
and only 3 of us dinner tgt ^^

then after the dinner..her parent came to fetch her from PS ( Plaza Singapura )
and only left me and the someone ^^
we took train tgt and i see still have time..i send her home ^^
although is a bit far..and my jeans keep wanted to drop off..

when we reach her block downstairs..she say she will pei me wait for bus..
and we waited..but i didnt wanted to take the bus..so we let 4 buses go and it was around 11pm..
haha XD and when i inside the train..i almost fall aslp lar..too tired..

overall today was happy ^^
and i forget shut down my comp when i leave my hse..sorry for you guys..
not i dont want reply you guys..is i not there..

2009-05-19T01:52:00.003+08:00

Blogging time..today no pics..actually should be have de..
but someone came down visit me again..but didnt want let me take..so bad right.haha XD
and i'm now smsing with her ^^

one week in Iluma and once again im back in Junction 8..
saw all the managers there..but today the BOSS that every calls..face so black..
i greet him also didnt know..and im scare to talk to him..dont want kena burn ^^
but im happy to see him again..although im not a gay =X

only Karen ( the manager ) asked me how am i at Iluma and all..
feel so touch..like im already a part of their family ^^
but i believe everyone there missed me hehe ^^

and guess what..today i saw the person i saw at Iluma that wears The Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf's uniform..
and wears a MacDonald's belt..i nv blog abt this cos i didnt took a pic of him..
wanted to take but he today do closing keep eat snake lar..then i and John have to do everything..
actually not we..is only him..haha XD i only keep ordering that Kahruial to do this do that..
i feel so bad..cos i also started not long ago..but Karen didnt dare to order him..
he talk and laugh to himself..as in REALLY..
but he is DAMN DISGUTSING and DIRTY lar..OMG~
gosh~ i serious cant work with him..John and Karen is cant take him asking questions..
but i can..so he keep asking me questions..you dont know so you ask..i also like this so i can take it..
but he is too DIRTY and DISGUTSING..that i cant take it..

and he is going to Orchard Cental with me de..lucky he is just a part time..if not i'll see him everyday..
haha XD sorry if you think im mean..but i really cant take it..hope i can take him wearing that belt..
and i will post it here..and i hope Karen wont think i disrespect her..for ordering that Khariual..
i respect all my managers ^^ but im just use to my old job scope..and i always last one to eat..

cos being a supervisor i have to take care all my work-mates..if i didnt spell wrongly..
yup yup..and i will prove to you all i can be a manager in the furture..

2009-05-17T22:51:00.012+08:00

guess who i saw today when i was at work..
Joanne Peh le..wanted to take her de..but the stupid ah yap..
keep shout and shout say : where..where..i cannot see le..where is Joanne Peh..
gosh~ she is just directly in front of him lar..then end up she leave..

she is a superstar le..then go out already feel hard ler..somemore she go out with a fren or maybe bf..
then ah yap still shout her name lar..haiz..if im her..i surely type a complaint letter lar..
nvm lar..what to do..who ask me dont dare go take..then end up she leave..

today is my last day at Iluma ler..going back to Junction 8 to work..
Lol..before i finish my work..ah yap tell me Janah asked me where am i..haha XD
Janah you miss me ugh =)
tml i going back Junction 8 ler..rmb you still owe me a pic shot..

and today when i was doing Espresso & Brew..i break one espresso shot glass..
im so sorry..didnt mean to do it de..really..i was rushing..
starting i still though im can handle Espresso & Brew myself..but end up break the glass..haiz..

and the whole day i keep getting myself cuts..now my both hands is full of cuts..
lucky my blood didnt went or drop into the customers drinks..haha XD
cos my hands is mostly under water or iced..so i also cant feel the pain until i stop making Ice Blended..
then after my hands is warm..and things i hold or i need wash plates..my hands hurts like hell lar..

nvm..last day at Iluma..just take it i have put in sweat and blood in there..haha XD lame..
go play game ler..tml must wake up early..first day back to Junction 8 cannot late de ^^

2009-05-17T02:34:00.006+08:00

just got home from work..today not as busy as ytd..
but is much more better then ytd..haha XD
and i finally know what is call you cant keep clean as you go..cos is like you're too lazy to even clean as you go..
when i just reach my work place there is alot ppl there..and i like got nth to do..cos everyone is doing it..
BUT only one little thing was there for me to do..and that is clear table..haha XD

and Pei Qi with her bf ( Best Fren [ that is what she said ] ) came down..
i was shock and happy at the same time..cos very long since the last time someone visit me when i work..
although im not a animal in the zoo but is happy to see her ^^

and Shereen and Dephare came down too..sorry ugh..my english sux..if spell wrongly dont blame me ^^
i think they came down to check or see see ba..and i was shock when Shereen said she know abt my blog..
gosh~ i think i must change link or need keep some feelings to myself..haha XD

anyway after that day i qurrel with that manager..dont know his name..
he treat me better..so as what i said..you treat me well..i do well ^^
hope we can carry on this way..anyway i also dont know whether will i work smoothly with Shereen..
cos still haven work with her since the day i worked in The Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf..

but if she really got view my blog..
Jonasan to Shereen : mdm..i really want work and become manager..
although i like a small kid lar..but my life still goes on..so i need climb up..and not stuck as a crew forever..
i will do my best..but i think everyone have its lazy time..hope that wont give you a bad image to you ^^