reach home after work..today is Saturday le..but im at home..
so sad lar..anyway i also cant go out..my body wont allow me to carry on..
my burn is like getting worst..

today at work so pain..now still pain..
im jus like handicap..haiz..damn sad ugh..i belongs to no one's life..
not even a sms asking me out..

so i played facebook once again..but i've finish up all my turns and rounds in facebook..
not i've got nth to do..so i blog..after i blog then i also will have nth to do..
OMG~ im so friendly and nice..why so lonely have to stay at home on a Saturday..

ppl that are so bad and use their " frenz " got to hang out with frenz NOW..
life is really so unfair..ppl that is toying others feeling..they take those ppl like gold..
then ppl that want take things serious others take this ppl as shit..
F this world man..money is everything..
i got money i got everything..even if its fake..is still there..

when you are damn rich..you can even throw money at their face and F them all over..
they will still smile and say sorry..treat others nice and they will treat you nice back..
take all this throw inside the bin..all are bullshit..

good ppl have no good endings..
only bad ppl has..
I WANT CHANGE..!i! change to a person that only cares abt himself..
cos selfish is the key to success..

omg~ i cant imagine i've finally reach home..
today to me is seriously a very long day..
ytd went out with Andy for drinking..till around 1am..
woke up at 6am..and 2days ago i jus recover from my whatever illness..
and today 20hours of working..cool right..haha XD


this was took before i leave hse to work..
haha XD handsome right..Lol..

then during work..haiz..i think i belong to the Cannot Make It department you know..
Shereen and Chervo is damn good lar..
but nvm..i believe is the time i need..

and i ate Fuzilli Chicken Mushroom during morning and my night..haha XD
okie after Orchard Central head straight to Forum..
once again i work with that guy again..hate him lar..so irritating..

so from the START i tell them all..dont touch me when i doing order..
i say i can HANDLE..so they let me be..only the starting part..
after awhile 2 cashiers against me..i still can handle..
only my movement looks slow..BUT i didnt owe any drinks okie..
until this ass came say help me and teach me how to clear order fast..
i was like _l_ F off lar..you will only make things worst..

and really he make things worst..he skip orders and customers complain why i came first..
get last..so lame right..then he say sorry ugh..is the manager ask me come help you..
WTF..!i! starting he say i do this way sure very slow..after he come nv slow..jus complains and complains..
and i realise i dont belong to the Cannot Make It department..he does..haha XD
so bad of me..so as usual..when someone wants to prove he is better when they are not..
i go clear table ^^ best job to do..after i came back..he kena scold by all the ppl there..
ask him to go away and stop there dont move..i was like o.O are you attachment or me..?
but anyway i think he is jus trying show care ba..

omg~ i got damn alot say abt there..but i think i shall stop here..
keep the rest to myself..anyway im going be like last time..keep everything to myself and me..
until someone really like me in everyway..
okie i go facebook awhile then must slp ler..later 10am yawn~

today i only worked for 2hours..

cos im sick..i really cannot take it..my body is shaking..
having cold sweat..keep want to vomit..and feeling dizzy..
why am i being so weak nowadays..?

Lucky Wellin came down at 9plus dont know for what..cos she is 3.30pm de..
but still need to thanks her..
I'm sorry Fernando..is not bcos i dont want work with you although you didnt even talk to me..
but i today really cannot make it..im sorry guys for letting you all down..

but i really swear i wont fall sick again..
hate being sick..so weak in everywhere..
went see doctor below my hse..so many medicine for me..and its all pills..
i dont know how to sallow..and i have to crush them all and mix with water..

now still having this damn pain headache..jus like after a car accident..
lucky not the stupid H1N1..if not i'll cry..im too young to die..

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ytd went out help me father check phone..
and my sister nth better to do so we tgt went out for the very first time..
and half way to Parrgo ( dont know izzit like this spell ) she saw her classmate..
so he tag along..then went to Orchard Central for our breakfast at 5pm..haha XD



then wait till 7pm for her bf..and we went to Parklene for Lan Shop..
4ppl ma..jus nice 2 on 2..but her bf dont play much games..
and her classmate also not that pro ugh..
so that night only i enjoying myself..haha XD

and i bought a hp pounch..

Wooo~ today i finally upload all the pics i've took for the past dont know how many days..
and guess what im going say..? o.O?
today i burn myself for the very first time in my working life..
5yrs in KFC i was never hurt or cut..
but 2months in The Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf..my whole is full of cuts and today burn by HOT WATER..!i!
anyway i took some pic of that burn mark..

but before that if ppl out there think that the pic will make you vomit..
please Alt F4 and close it ba..
but before today's news..lets see what past day's pics i've took..


this is Pure Vanilla Ice Blended with Whip Cream and Cherry ^^
although i make wrong..but it taste really nice ^^ cos i make de ma..haha XD


this is Forum The Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf..
went there work O.T actually got alot to talk abt there..
but i forget mostly everything..but anyway ppl there is weird..

they need a all rounder..but they put me at Ice Blended o.O?
anyway and i've finish my closing station..i try help this person..
but end up this person talk to me and ask me to do what and what..
sounds like he is the one helping me..i was like WTF..!i!
but anyway lucky i only have 1day at Forum ^^

cant wait to go Junction 8 again..guys i miss you all..!i!
can you all hear me ^^ haha XD so lame..

hehe ^^ i got burn and cannot wear the apron so i was allow to wear it half way..
although i ask Lance ( Allan ) to take my whole body..

okie if you think you will vomit to disgusting pic please Alt F4..
i've give the warning..

jus took right after i got burn by the HOT WATER..!i!


this is after my long day of work and reach home after bath took de ^^
hmmm~ only few hours my skin has dead..is now dead skin ler..
when i got burn..the first thing was not cry or shout for help..
but i was thinking to tell someone that cares me and show me care..
but i dont have anyone in my mind at that point of time..

haiz..so sad right..haha XD anyway i've grow up..
mommy always say i a bit thing cry until like its end of the world..
this time i didnt even make a sound..although it hurts..
but i think i've no feeling already..

today my Shifu came find me..while dating ba..
make him a special Ice Blended by me ^^
hmmm~ is customer request ugh..so yup yup..

okie..i go play FaceBook lor..
now i really understand i have totally no feel anymore..
even if i bleed i feel nth ^^

bOo~ its another new week..
so tired..im back to my old life..no life ^^
only work and games thats all..dont know is good or bad..

anyway i Friday went Forum work O.T for 9hours..
although at there work is seriously a bit weird..but think of the money..
its great ^^ almost faint when closing..maybe not enough slp..
and Saturday at my place work..i also almost faint..haha XD
but who cares right..jus work for money ba..

so lazy to post my pic..i took a few pic ler..
anyway i play facebook lor ^^
who cares..this coming week i going to have 3days O.T ^^
although 2days is at Forum BUT 1day is at Junction 8 yea ^^
hao ler..i go play game ler..

Wake up Wake up..!i! its morning ler..i going to work ler..
ytd went out DRINK again..!i! yes~ DRINK..
with my brothers ^^ till around 2am..
was plan to go home at around 1am end up stay until 2am..

and now have to wake up and go work..
so tired..haiz..keeping everything inside heart is seriously xin ku..
Lol..hao ler..will stop here ^^
who cares anyone~

Wooo~ reach home..home alone..
damn sick ytd's ytd..but today is better ba i think..
i seriously have to STOP thinking..
what is the point when i put someone/something first but they dont even care..
all they use is just words..

bull shit..anyone can also say that..
saying is loads easier then doing it..
who cant you tell me..not those handicap lar..

anyway thats it..damn regret why i want know and be frenz..
end up only i feel hurt..heartless is the best..
where you got no feelings for anyone and you can HURT everyone..
too bad i born with a red heart..not black..

so im gonna smoke so much until my heart turns black..
pass 3days..no one came down see how am i..
although i was only waiting for that 1 person..
i've smoked more then 2packs for that 3days..
more then what normally i smoked..so ya~

im gonna stop that..cos i wont let my feelings change cos of someone..
who cares right..everyone is selfish..
i want stay happy..you sad not my business..is that in your mind too~
i've lived for almost 21yrs now then i know this sentence..
how slow am i..but late better then never..

you gonna stay whatever i dont care..
i want be what i am and kill everyone that's against me ^^
NOOB FUCK OFF..!i!

11am woke up today..
off and rot at home..doing nothing but jus rot..so sad..
now is abt 7pm..i've been playing FaceBook for almost 8hrs..
and all i've done is quiz..haha XD

anyway if whoever got FaceBook add me o~
yup yup my name is still my name ^^
be with me if i really stands a place in your life ^^
i think im born to be everyone's BEST FRENz or CLOSE FRENz..

born alone and shall die alone..
God is so fair..haha XD

woke up after ytd terrible headache..
although i now feel slightly better..but still pain..
haiz..today is my off day but im rotting at home..

no frenz no loves one..so sad..
im so sick yet no one cares..

if im not working..seriously i think if i die at home..no one will even know..
im gone from this world..hope my illness is not the H1N1 thingy..
haiz..F the world man..!i!

reach home again..actually was feeling sad wanted go drink..
but before i leave hse i was having a strong headache..
but only 1 side..then after i reach the meeting place..
i start to feel like vomiting..omg~ damn xin ku lar..
then when going go take bus to the drinking place..
while waiting for the bus..i start to feel cold..and i start to have cold sweat..
and stomach pain..damn..dont know izzit i really sick or just feeling that hurt me so deep..
i feel all this..anyway i didnt go..and decided to come back home..

now goin slp ler..nv felt this way before..damn XIN KU UGH..!i!

finish work and reach home lor ^^
today was suppose to be my off day but was change to Wednesday..
after my work i took train back..but i dont know why i stood there for very long..
is like im so lost..dont know where to go..

then reach home ler..got some kuku guy say he from Government and ask some questions..
haiz..i feel like crying but i just cant..not because i dont want cos im a man..
is i want but jus wont have tears down my eyes..

everyone is a main role in everyone's life..
so mine also right..but why aint i doing well like those main role in TV..
haiz..im not going QUIT smoking..everytime i quit for someone end up i smoke more..
and this time is worst..

seriously what is the point of being good ma..
this is real life..being good equal die first..
so hard working but end up still get ppl dislike..
treat ppl nice and good end up ppl treat me as best fren..WTF..!i!

ARH..!i! i so fan..!i! im so sad..!i! im so confuse..!i!
im in deep pain..!i! i want cut myself and see blood..!i!
maybe i will not feel so pain..haiz..

finish work ler..now jus reach home haven bath and all..
so lazy and tired..
morning went to The Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf HQ take stock..
so many things but i alone..
the worst part is they pack it 2 big bags..

make me 1 person take 1 point to 1 point..
after wearing the Mascot so tired lar..
but i really had loads of fun doing it..
but this week not me ler..too bad~

anyway i wear also no one come find me..
so lonely lar..is just like have fun want share also no one to share..
haiz..this weekdays i working morning..
dont know which day i will be late for work..so scare..omg~
hmmm~ now so sad but i have no one to find to talk to..
although i have Mommy but she is just God-Mommy..

I GOT NO ONE TO TALK TO NOW..!i!

and this week i got alot O.T yea~
earn more money..anyway also no one to hangout with..
then dont waste the time rotting at home..
hope i everyday also O.T haha XD
since no one want let me die for..then i shall die for money ba..
go play game lor ^^

my father using comp..until now then can use..
today also a tired day..wear the thingy for damn long..
cos we was unable to go in and rest i jus have to stay outside for nearly 4hrs..
tired but fun..but sales okie okie only..

so i think thats all for work..cos today also nth much to talk abt..
only when i wear the thingy ppl at the mall..
like the Brass Band ppl when playing..they say shoppers there can dance if they want..
then i stand there and look at them..and the singer say but not for our Ice Blended..
cos ytd he had dance alot for us..everyone laugh lar..

then also the Drum Band outside the mall..
i want go there disturb..they trap me..so bad right..
haha XD or im so evil..

and when i was waiting for the who..i dont know how to spell his name..
got a security tap on my back and ask me dance well..
haha XD hope i help everyone in the mall bring sales to them ^^

omg~ Daphne found a video of me dancing lar..
dont know how she do it..but only awhile and i didnt really dance alot..haha XD

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=96271519156&ref=share

copy and paste ba..is at FaceBook..lucky i got acct..haha XD damn funny lar..
go watch..

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haiz..yup yup..is my feelings time ^^
finally she didnt reply me ler..
why must everyone think or feel that i can be everyone's best fren..
is like i live for everyone..then when i need someone..
who will live for me..?
haiz..dont say ler..everyone is selfish..
do i really look ugly or my character is bad..?
why want be with someone i love also so hard..haiz..
i give up..the day i know love i die for girl..
from today onwards i want girl die for me..

half an hour more i must be at my work place..
but im at home eating fried carrot cake..and blogging..
i've finally know all you want is just be frenz..
thank you for making me look like a fool..

hoping and thinking which day will be that day..
so much i've done end up is just for a fren..hmmm~ not my kind le..
i wont change anything for frenz..not even for my brothers that know for 10yrs..

is you simply dont understand..then just stop here since you dont even want to move on..
even if you stop the world is still turning..
got to go ler..if not late for work..

later 1pm to 7pm come find me ba if anyone is free..
Toilet Paper i dont even think you will come down..
and i dont want you come down..cos you will be with your " close frenz " stand so near like some bf..
in front of me.._l_ F off man..

Wooo~ today was a busy and tiring day for everyone at Orchard Central's Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf ba..
today i was wearing the Ice Blended thingy..sorry ugh dont know how to spell..
i dont know am i a worker that wants to work for a living or because im sad so i become like a clown..
anyway today everyone work hard and we finally hit 3k sales for the first time..

Thank you everyone and Shereen for staying till closing for us and 3k sales ^^
and tml i will be there same place same time..rmb come find me and if you take pic please send to me..
so i can post in my blog~

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ytd damn sad..so after work i go find my brothers to drink..
even i know tml will be a hard day for me i still want go drink..
i want drunk and slp and forget everything..

but after this few days..i found that Toilet Paper didnt even CARE for me at all..
so i've here seriously give up..
and i will start posting ^^

no one be there for me then no one lor..
i will always be the Star in everyone's heart but you..
you think im unfair then im sorry..i cant hold on anymore..

anyway this are the pic i ytd night with my brothers~

the drink we open ^^
although i drank 4cups only..but my hand is shaking already..
now i believe..when you sad even 1 cup you can drunk..

left side and right side is my brothers..
red shirt is my brother's real life blood brother..

there..they 2 are real life blood brother..

he is playing 5 10 15 with the rest..
like want to fight ugh..? haha XD

she quite fat..but very cute ^^
she pose ler..then after i took she ask me cannot take without asking le..
cute right..haha XD

today is my second day post but saved at draft..
jus reach home but going out now~
meet my brothers..Andy and Darius..

today afternoon went for the exam i pass ^^ although it was my second try..
it was damn hard..but they was saying : until you learn Coffee then you know hard..
but anyway the exam was 3pm to 4pm end up started at 4.16pm..
then when i reach Orchard Central was already 7.30pm..

today alot ppl..and Teddy kept asking me let Lance do..
order already jam still ask me let him do..
i dont want have problem with managers again..so i let them be..

before i went out wait for them i took some pic inside Orchard Central..
but i was stopped by the ppl there..lucky my phone memory not enough have to delete..
so i jus show the person..haha XD lucky me..



and today we busy till 11.30pm..earn around $900..
after work was 12.30pm..took cab back..
but we waited outside for Teddy to finish his food~
both of them was busy sms and calling..
although i dont know who..but i feel like why i dont have a person to do so with..

haiz..so sad right~
i dont like lock by job..but im so willing to lock up by my wife or gf..
to me is love..maybe i nv had a proper love since young..

anyway i just cant take this anymore..
to me or maybe to some ppl..you like then be tgt..dont like just let go lar..
i want be tgt but you jus say not sure..

and seriously i want to give up ler..
i say dont want talk then you really let me be..omg~
so i will not stay there and wait..i'll go..to a place where no one is..
maybe a place where no love lives..

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today is sat

Woot~ today was a busy day~
work so hard but only $600 sales..but i think is not bad ler ba~
dont know night time can hit 1k sales ma..

anyway~ after work we was sitting there slacking..
until someone came~ we all decided to leave..
and we ( Shereen, Daphne, John and me ) wanted have dinner tgt..
and i rmb i saw steamboat somewhere in Orchard Central..
but we didnt found it..

so end up we decided to eat at Seoul Garden..


at Taka if i not wrong ^^
then we got 3 more frenz ^^
Shereen's ex staff..but dont know izzit all or only 1..?

and this is some pic i took~


John, Daphne

hmmm~ this 2 i forget their name of i think they didnt tell me their name~
cos Daphne was telling them this is John and Jon..

there is the 3 new frenz ^^
Azmi on the very left wearing red..cos his name is one of my secondary fren..
so can rmb =X

maybe you will think thought i say total is 7 of us..
ya~ Shereen was sitting my right side..
and i dont take pic of my own~ so ya~
didnt took her pic =X
sorry ^^ not bcos i dont like you what ugh~

so tired now..tml is the Exam for the Tea..
and im not well prepare..haiz..
now going slp soon~ tml then study ba~
wish me luck..and here i wish Shikin and Ida all the best ^^

bOo~ now is 6plus in the morning~
another day working mornin~
early morning was been blame for all the fault..
so sad~ hate this feeling..

anyway awhile more will be off to work ler..
so tired and pain and sad~
and today will be a long day being home alone~

wont be online i think after so much has happen..
cos i find it pointless..
and since the free time i have is alone..
i'll be finding another job to make myself busy till the limit i cant even slp..
although is a bit too early to find another job~
but since i gonna find at the later part..no diff if i get it now~
since my free time i gonna be alone..

maybe this is better for whoever thinks i sux..
when things always have to happen this way..
want to step out but end up going back to the start point..

anyway my pay should be out ler..
going buy my cap or hat~
and be my old self again..where all i care is myself..
since ppl think im selfish~
yea~ game is my life and money is everything~
the rest is all bullshit~

sorry for the rest if my post feel hurting..
but i bet no one will know~
or maybe i wont know..cos this blog will not be visited by Jonasan me anymore~
where everything is kept to myself..

after so long and this is my last..

Till Next Time~

after so long first day doing morning..
and guess what..i was late~
although is only 10mins but still late ma..

and since the time i woke up i keep running to the toilet like its really free..
although is really free..haha XD
today everyone hack care me..actually is not hack care ba..
just i now seriously F-ing no mood..

cos i cant feel at least someone place me first..
that is sad thing to talk abt i think..
now damn hungry damn tired damn angry..or maybe jus no mood rather then angry..

when i cant wait ppl say i so impatient..
when i try to control..end up system faulty and i was waiting like a fool~
is like if this person you know is always impatient..
one day he totally nv contact or rush you for few hours..
dont you find something wrong..?
nvm..im not that important to anyone after all..

a place where i want voice out..but i cant really type it out..
a person i thought was there for me..but is all with my own thinking..
off day no one to hang out with..
when you down no one to talk to..
when you happy no one to share the joy with..
am i still suppose to carry on to live..?
maybe the day i am gone no one will know~
haha XD so sad~ what a person..

the pain that is within my heart who can understand..?
i rather the cut was right on my flesh then there ba~

hmmm~ today went find Toilet Paper for lunch..
cos it was her last day to have lunch..although i was a bit late..
then after that i went Orchard Central to study the Tea Class Exam on this coming Friday..

its really hard seriously..but i so far covered the basic of the tea..
tml will follow up on the base..jia you Jonasan~
but tml im working morning omg~
scare i cant wake up sia..

tml and thus will be working mornin and fri exam then sat and sunday wear the Ice Blended thingy..
this week is a happening and busy week for me..
haha XD going slp ler..if not tml cant wake up..

sorry Toilet Paper..make you waited for so long end up you fall aslp..
i just reach home..sweet dreams everyone ^^
sat and sunday if you all free..come see me ba ^^
take the pic ler send it to me so i can blog it =)